I'm struggling this morning... call it depression, call it PMS, call it whatever you want to call it... i dont really care. But right now,in this moment, I am feeling very, very low.
I'm sitting here looking at my desk. Or at least, at the spot where there used to be a desk. It seems as though I've been trying to dig myself out of this hole ever since School started in September. I've been working, cleaning, decluttering, working some more... trying to make a dent in this overwhelming task of bringing order back into my life. But nothing changes!
Nothing ever changes... How do you do it? how do you maintain a nice, neat, tidy home, with two kids who trash it in 30 seconds? How do you work? How do you have time for yourself and do the fun things that you love to do? How do you have time for your children? How do you do the cooking, the cleaning, the grocery shopping, the organizing, the decluttering, and also find the time to work from home to earn the money that you need to pay for your kids school and the family car you just bought?
Then to top it all off, you get sick, (probably because you didn't have time to take proper care of yourself), you get caught up with a cold for a few days. And when you are finally well enough to take a look around, all you want to do is go straight back to bed and hide your head under the pillow... How do you face it? How do you dig yourself out?
What's the point? If all of that hard work and effort can be un-done in a matter of moments, what's the point of even trying?
I'm lost right now... so very, very lost.