I'm wondering if this is at all common, or just a very special thing I go through. It seems like every year on my DS's birthday (today, by the way) I feel sad. I'm not joyful like I think I should be remembering his birth, remembering his baby-hood.
Both of my children (DS is 4 and DD is 20 mo) were born at home, and I had what would be considered successful homebirths. No complications.
His birth was pretty grueling for me physically and emotionally, but we got through it and here we are 4 years later. You would think that would be reason to celebrate.
I think some of this is related to the PPD I had with him, I think some of it is related to the difficult relationship my DP and I had at the time. I just want to understand why I'm feeling this way, and accept it if I need to, but be able to move on if possible.
Can anyone commiserate? Homebirth is such an amazing life-changing experience. I wonder if anyone else goes through this annual sadness.