My DD is 16 months. DS is 8-years-old. Before I got pregnant with DD in 2009, I had just returned to work (20 hours) and felt like I had gotten some balance and energy back after 4 years of nursing and 6 years of SAHM'ing.
Fast forward and it's been 2 years since I've had more than 3 hours sleep at any time (I don't sleep well when pregnant and DD nurses around the clock) -- most nights I get only 5 hours total in broken increments. I'm in bed for longer but just can't sleep easily after being awakened.
We started home schooling DS in March of this year so I have both children myself for 10 hours or more a day. I've got chronic head pain, am emotionally exhausted, and no matter how much I eat (gluten free and dairy free), I cannot feel full and satisfied (thank you nursing!).
I've tried some park dates but I am so not a moms-club/play-date kind of mommy. I worked PT from when DD was 3-12 months but when I lost my wonderful nanny, I could not find any one comparable to replace her. We have no family near by and I feel like I'm clinical. I did not miss a single thing with DS -- I caught every breath and experience and gave it 110% every day. I simply don't have the resources to care for DD the same way and keep up with DS. I'm an older mom (40's) and miss the intellectual stimulation and friendships at work --- my days feel so long (and the nights just continue on) and keeping up with kids with such different needs (toddler vs. 8) is challenging to me. Help!