I have an only child who is four. We have literally been attached at the hip since her birth. Dh and I have never left her with anyone other than my mil for a couple of hours and that's always in our home. I love being with her and fully intended to keep it this way. We normally spend our days together tv free, going on fun day trips and playing, singing, reading, cooking, etc.
But lately, I have been struggling ttc #2 and have gone through months of medical treatments and IVF which has left me with miscarrying right now. It's been very hard and stressful for us. I am so depressed it's hard to get out of bed. I've started seeing a therapist to try and get through this.
I have no energy to play with dd right now. I feel like an awful mother. I feel like I'm failing her everyday. She's probably watched more tv in the last month than she has in her whole life. I don't know how much longer we can go on this way. I have no family or close friends nearby that could help out. She is a very sensitive child and I have HUGE worries about her being able to adjust in a school setting but I also worry that being at home with me is not healthy for her right now.
So my question is ... do you think I should enroll her in at least a part time school program or just try to get through this together? I've always fully intended to homeschool so I can't believe I'm even thinking of this. I want to do what's best for her but I really don't know what that is. I'm afraid I'll be making a foolish decision right now because it's out of grief and I'm not thinking clearly.