So, yeah, this will be my second baby. I'm only 9 weeks along (and I've only known for 2 weeks), so maybe it's just all really new to me and I haven't mentally adjusted yet. But I feel really, really nervous about this baby. I'm not nervous about the pregnancy or the birth necessarily (my first one was textbook easy and I really loved being pregnant, hoping this one will be similar!), but I'm nervous about how I'll adjust to a second child. I love my son (who will be just about exactly 2 when the new baby is born) so much, and I worry sometimes that a new baby will take away our time together, that I'll somehow be depriving him of my attention right as he's transitioning to serious toddler-hood. He's a pretty high-energy kid, so I worry about how I'll keep up with him once I progress into the coming months. I worry how I'll deal with two kids in our tiny apartment, how I'll keep up with the laundry, how I'll deal with the sleep deprivation while still caring for my older child during the day. DS was such a terrible, awful sleeper for the first 13 months, 1-3 wake ups every night, and I am, frankly, really nervous and a bit depressed about facing that again. (Tell me that my next child could be one of those magical children that sleeps 9 hours in a row by 4 months, please!) Breastfeeding was excruciating for the first six weeks thanks to a bad latch, and I dread going through that again.
I try to tell myself that once I move into the 2nd trimester and I start "feeling" pregnant, I'll be more excited. I mean, I am, theoretically, thrilled about this baby. We wanted to have another child, and we wanted to have them close together. My husband is already truly thrilled, and I've been feeling like I have to fake a little excitement to keep up with him. We weren't trying, but we weren't preventing. I just wasn't expecting it to happen so quickly! Part of it is also that I don't know anyone with two children, so I haven't had a chance to see it all in action. Despite being 35 going on 36, none of my old friends have children (thank you, NYC lifestyle). I'm really lucky to have made several new-mama friends in my neighborhood, so I do have friends with children the same age as DS but I'm still the first to have a second baby.
Did anyone else go through this with their 2nd child? Does anyone want to share some stories with me about how much their older child loved the new baby and how yes, it's tiring, but also really wonderful to have more than one child?