Ok I kind of posted this in another thread but I didn't get a response. I might as well get down to what I am really concerned about.
Since I was a little kid I have loved the idea of being pregnant. I obsessed over it. Now I have 3 kids ages 3, 21 months, and 5 months and I cannot wait to get pregnant again. I love being pregnant, giving birth, and having babies. The last 2 kids were concieved 6 months pp, I am coming up on 6 months pp with my youngest and I have such a strong desito be pregnant again, it is painful to imagine not being. Could it be a hormonal imbalance? Why do I want to be pregnant again?
Then I feel guilty for wanting another so soon, "why can't I just be grateful for the children I have?" which leads to me being guilty about every thing else, no matter what I do I feel guilty. I am a good mom. I know I am a good mom, but I always feel guilty for some reason, usually for wanting more kids, but it could be as reheating food for lunch instead of making a new meal or taking the kids grocery shopping instead of to the park. I don't know whats wrong with me. So to some it up. I want to be pregnant. I am guilty all the time and I feel like I am always on the edge. I asked DH if he thought I had ppd and he said "no not at all." So if I don't, I am really sorry for posting this here. I am just trying to figure out what is normal here and what might be a signal of a bigger problem. I realize ppd is a serious issue.