This is a strange story it certainly caused me to think, and I need to get it off my chest. Last month we were on the way to visit my poor mother at the nursing home in PA. What once was a beautiful drive through some of the prettiest fall folliage in the county is now industrial traffic jam featuring scenic man camps. It's such painful slap in the face that natural gas industry has been left to ravage rural america. ANYWAY my teenage daughter is well aware that I m ready to burst into tears several times, so we talk about school. "In PIG we are talking about abortion" my daughter tell me. I tell her my views, she tells me hers. I say that if I were to have an unplanned pregnancy (never has, never will) I would have to accept that the events were karmic in nature and I would take the morning after pill. Or failing that that I was okay with abortion before the heart starts to beat.
That night.. the condom breaks. It's okay I have been tracking my cycles and we are in a safe period, besides I only have one fallopian tube. Ugh! Maybe I should take the morning after pill? Well it turns out that it is a super dose of hormonal birth control. I can't take these hormones due to the risk of stroke (I also have an all out ~seek and destroy~ auto immune reation that was almost diagnosed as Lupus untill they realized it was triggered by the pill). So I don't take it. Two weeks later I start feeling sick, I know I am pregnant now. Crap. Spiritually, I am into the vedas and for years I have felt truth in the eastern world view. Having  rejected the western paradigm, I really can feel a connection to these teachings. No sooner do I go to one of my favorite rig veda translation sites, do I learn that the vedas abhor abortion.  The universe has blessed me with another child. After meditating that night I know I am meant to eat my words. The cosmic mother provides. So if you hear some new age crap about how the mind "is the builder" of reality, be aware. I will police my beliefs more prudently. I am grateful for my "problems" and I am doing my best to walk the path of life. Freak me out. This isn't meant to be a lecture pro or against! My truths are for me, and each must find their own light to guide their way. Thanks for listening.
 I know I've experienced it a number of times...it has made me realize that beliefs, viewpoints, opinions matter little if they're not representative of the truth that lives in our hearts.  The amazing thing is, the Universe/Source/Cosmic Mother has a way of making what's in our hearts clear, which then makes our beliefs melt and dissolve.
