I struggle with anxiety even when not pregnant and mostly have it under control (not with meds), but pregnancy really seems to bring it out. The last couple days, when I am lying down with my toddler for her nap, I've had these flashes that this pregnancy will kill me. I am totally sure of it in that moment. It's not some premonition or anything. I've been 100% sure I would die so. many. times. before, and here I am. Still alive!
Last pregnancy I worried about the baby and was totally convinced that I would lose it (but look! Here she is right beside me, eating cheesy eggs and tomatoes happily!); this time (so far) it seems more about my life.
Does anyone else deal with this? It's ridiculous & I know it, but it's still scary.