Rena how far along will you be? I've heard people seeing the heartbeat as early as 5w5d, mine was a week later and we could see babies with their heartbeats.
We can only see the other little one because the doctor still looks for it to see if my body reabsorbed it at this point I don't think it will.




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But at the same time, I still get a little sad when I think about the idea, or see pictures of smiling twin babies, and wonder how it would have been. Our little Baby B stopped growing at around 9 weeks and you could still see the baby and sac on u/s by the end. There was definitely a scary time when we didn't know if my body would miscarry the twin and pose a risk to Anika, but that never happened. My OB couldn't find it after birth, and I really hope that the twin didn't end up in the part of the placenta that got taken for testing. We planted what was given back to us under a raspberry bush in our yard. DH and I both are just so happy that Anika is healthy and strong, and who knows if she would have had enough resources if the twin had made it, so we focus on that without regret. Sorry, this turned into a bum-out post. I just connected with how Keria feels about her triplet. For what it's worth, Baby B was a little behind in the first few weeks (though it caught up and passed Anika the last time we saw it alive). I think probably the fact that it was behind has something to do with it not growing beyond 9 weeks.

And yes, I do routinely wish I was filthy rich so I could continue living like I do now, but without working except when I want to. lol... But I wouldn't trade the lifestyle we have now: I love it!
We're definitely minimalists at heart. I'd probably buy a Playstation 3, though. 

We have picked up some cute clothes for him, we're just not swimming in stuff like we are for Maisie.


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