Is anyone else suffering from baby fever? I want a second one. I'm 28 and for some reason I have it in my head that if I have another one it'll be before I turn 30. I don't know....I think of how hard it hits my body and that after 30 the elasticity and ability to spring back will dramatically decrease, and I'll have less energy, etc. I'm not saying this is how it goes for everyone, but I know personally that the 1 thing that has aged me the most (physically and energy-wise) was becoming a mom.
Plus, I'm starting graduate school this coming Spring. I want to be able to have a career and also be a good mom. I know some women who juggled that successfully (one of them was my mom) but the whole thing scares me a bit. The person I'm seeing and I have talked about children and we both want one. This is coming out pretty disjointed but that's how my thought process is right now.
Then there's the holiday blues......missing my family, we live all over the world but grew up really close. I so wish I could give my little one that kind of experience but we have no family here whatsoever other than her dad/my ex.
I had a lot of directions in which I could have taken my life at the end of this year......and now that I've been accepted into grad school and I've decided to do that, I'm kinda slowly saying farewell to the other ideas of where I could have taken my future.
It doesn't help that my 2.5 yr old keeps asking me to put a baby in my belly. :) She is so sweet.
The significant other and I are looking at getting some land to build a straw bale house and live off-grid (amazingly, you can do that less than 30 minutes from the city where we live). Would that mean no baby? I mean how can you build a house with a huge belly/a newborn -- I'm gonna be out of commission for a while if we decide to get pregnant.
Lots of big things happening right now. I am very happy with all of it, but just really introspective today -- maybe it's this super cold weather.
We are going to go spend the weekend with his family next weekend. Everyone is so excited to meet my little girl. <3
No real point to this thread other than to share with all of you. I would love to read where you all are at? What things or plans you are mulling over, etc. What are you envisioning and where are you headed?