Help!!!
I have always had such a great nursing relationship with my son - now 28 months, until the new baby came along (4 weeks old). It is difficult nursing both, but I really enjoy my breastfeeding relationship with each of them.
EXCEPT when my toddler wakes up - every morning - at 4:30 or 5am. He wants to nurse back to sleep, but because he's not in a deep sleep, it can take 30 minutes +. I find it so hard. I feel like I could crawl out of my skin, and I have a lot of negative emotions towards him during this time. Sometimes I just cry while he nurses and I hate that something that has always been so special between us, has changed so dramatically. But it's only at this time of day - even at 2am, which usually only lasts 5 minutes until he's back asleep, is still really nice, and when he nurses during the day, it's lovely, especially when I have both boys nursing in my arms! It's just this 5am time, and I don't know if it will get better, then I will just work through it, but if not, I don't want to ruin our nursing relationship by continuing to do something that makes me feel so awful towards him. He seems to really need this nursing time, emotionally. When I ask him to close his eyes and go back to sleep, he cries for 'Mummy milk'.
Help, what do I do, do I wean this 5am nursing, and if so how, or should I just tough it out? Any thoughts or suggestions would be MUCH appreciated!
