Do you ever feel like a sucker?

[evillager]

Like when you need to start your THIRD big bottle of prenatal vitamins, but you're still not even pregnant? Like when you wake up early on your days off to temp? Like when you keep going back to the doctor to get poked a prodded, but still no baby? Sometimes it just feels a little too ridiculous.

I figure if anyone might understand it would be you ladies!

[mole]

yesyesyesyesyes!

[toothfairy2be]

I feel like a sucker every time I look at my bank statement- Acupuncture, Chiropractor, VitaminWorld, BostonIVF, Amazon.com, Village Pharmacy.... but aren't we all a sucker for that squishy newborn smell too...

[Mothoki]

I was on prenatals for over a year before I ever got pregnant.  I'm 8 weeks today.  ;-)

[rcr]

Yes!!! I have been on every supplement known to even potentially help with fertility for almost 4 years now. Still not pregnant. Those damn Maca pills are a load of crap if you ask me, yet I still keep taking them. Ugh.

[evillager]

Yes, and all those lovely Progesterone suppositories that I have to put up my hooha twice a day for weeks, even as those pregnancy tests turn up snow white every time... Sometimes I'm sad, sometimes it's just so ridiculous I ALMOST laugh.

[aphel]

You know what makes me feel like a sucker? All those years on birth control. Taking the morning after pill because a condom broke pre-ejaculation. Pulling out. Ever worrying about a late period. Charting to avoid.

Sigh.

[2sweetsparrows]

Aphel- I just said this the other day- I know that some suffer from fertility issued in their 20's however most women I know are in their 30's= We say you spend you 20 trying not to get pregnant, then you spend your 30's trying to get pregnant.  I even tried not to get pregnant with my husband so we could do international travel.  Now I think- I would certainly give up some trip's to have been pregnant- hind-site is 20/20.

[here we are]

Bumping. I am feeling like a major sucker today. Didn't buy my prenatals because i felt like a sucker, just buying another bottle, again. So i didnt buy it, then i thought i would buy a regular vitamin and couldnt decide which one , and again felt like a sucker. Now i feel like i am without vitamins for too long and dont know what to do. How long can this go on? Its like i am feeling conflicted about wanting to be pregnant because i dont think i can for many confusing reasons. I just think if i buy the prenatals, what will happen when they run out again, not that its going to be anytime soon, but still. Its getting old and getting the better of me.

[Silverbird]

Yep defintly feeling like a sucka.  Feel like a sucka when all my facebook add offer things for my non existent pregnacy/child. vitamins, IVF, acuputre, rexflexology, hypnothapy you name it I've tried it.  Really starting to wonder if this will ever happen and if I should just give up.

[here we are]

Its so great to not feel like a sucker all alone but that doesnt mean i am glad you all feel like suckers! Nothing makes sense when i feel like this. I find myself thinking how good it is to not be having a child and every possible good thing about that. So frustrating. Its like i must convince myself just in case i need to be prepared, but then i find myself believing it. No more worrying about diapers, potty training, accidents, cleaning messes off the floor in middle of night, not having enough money, instability of future, having a daughter grow up to suffer with the same stuff i am dealing with, ,,,should i go on,? Anyone else do this to themselves? I am so good at convincing myself of these things lately, its a strange road.

[hippiemama2bee]

I totally get it.  23 cycles into the TTC process, birth control seems like a complete joke.  The only good thing was it kept my AF's light and less painful.  Why did I even bother and worry over missed pills?  Who was I kidding???  I've done 4 rounds of Clomid and now trying soy in hopes of BFP.  FX and praying for all of us ladies this month so we aren't suckers any longer!
 

[here we are]

I read the sleep deprivation posts trying to convince myself there is no way I want to parent. Am i the biggest sucker? I cant even tell how i would feel if i wasnt having health issues, so i confuse myself not knowing whether or not its how i feel or to just prepare for not conceiving. Have i changed my mind? Has not conceiving been good for me and helped me realize i dont want to because of all the stresses involved that i have convinced myself are just too much. Or has dealing with all of this ruined my confidence? I could go on and on. I feel like i am confessing all these things that make me feel guilty.

[here we are]

Bump. I am so selfish between here and the pity party post & i want someone to reply to my thoughts, which are more like thoughts to myself yaknow? Maybe VB i will start my own thread about these complex feelings. And dont, let me make you feel sucked in to my suckerness LOL.

[Lindz]

Originally Posted by aphel 

You know what makes me feel like a sucker? All those years on birth control. Taking the morning after pill because a condom broke pre-ejaculation. Pulling out. Ever worrying about a late period. Charting to avoid.

Sigh.

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  OMG!  And don't forget all the $$$$ on OPK and pregnancy tests...ugh.  

[Lindz]

Here We Are:  Same thing here....maybe I don't want a kid...I like to sleep and travel and all my friends are like "you're so lucky" so I convince myself I don't actually want it as bad as I do.  Then I see a baby and forget it.  Tears and sleepless nights and fits of anger.  

[here we are]

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[Lindz]

I'm just mad.  So mad.  My personality is when I get mad I immediately hate, disengage, and run.  That's kind of hard when you are mad at your own body.  Sigh.  I think we are all mental head cases.  This thing does that to us.

[skeemama]

Originally Posted by toothfairy2be 

I feel like a sucker every time I look at my bank statement- Acupuncture, Chiropractor, VitaminWorld, BostonIVF, Amazon.com, Village Pharmacy.... but aren't we all a sucker for that squishy newborn smell too...

I here ya.

[KarinaNYC]

Argh..I can so relate. Feel like a huge sucker when I see the bin sitting in my bedroom that's filled with infant items collected over the last 8 years. Or when I purchase another pregnancy book. Or walk into a baby store. Or read another parenting article. Or research another product. Or take a new supplement. Or say a prayer and try bargain with a higher power. I feel like Meryl Streep masquerading pain and acting about how fine I am and whatever will be, will be. When in reality, I just don't want to deal with what seems to be the inevitable sadness & emptiness I may have to face. Phew...that was a lot. Sorry for the hijack. I don't wish this on anyone.