Its so great to not feel like a sucker all alone but that doesnt mean i am glad you all feel like suckers! Nothing makes sense when i feel like this. I find myself thinking how good it is to not be having a child and every possible good thing about that. So frustrating. Its like i must convince myself just in case i need to be prepared, but then i find myself believing it. No more worrying about diapers, potty training, accidents, cleaning messes off the floor in middle of night, not having enough money, instability of future, having a daughter grow up to suffer with the same stuff i am dealing with, ,,,should i go on,? Anyone else do this to themselves? I am so good at convincing myself of these things lately, its a strange road.