Do you ever feel like a sucker? - Page 2

[daurelia]

I feel all these feelings exactly. So so much.

I also feel like a sucker that I put off trying to have a baby my first 3 years of marriage-- my job at that time didn't pay enough to cover day-care so I wanted to wait until I could afford day care. Now I wish I hadn't waited. Although I don't know if it would have made any difference- I was 26 then and I'm only 30 now.

[here we are]

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Edited by here we are - 11/9/12 at 3:23pm

[KarinaNYC]

So sorry you have to deal with that, especially after your losses. My collection started innocently enough with the hopeful intent of preparing for parenthood. It gave me a secret joy, planning for a future child. Now, it's become sort of a dirty little secret. And in the last 8 years I have given things away from my sad, hopeless "stash". I can only imagine how painful it must be to do that after conceiving and then suffering a loss. My hubby is supportive but does find it sad that I have a little stash waiting for a child that may never arrive. Thankfully, he's not judgemental in the least & has never criticized or questioned my need for it. It's just one of those things that gives me hope & makes the possibility seem more real and tangibile. Unfortunately, when I'm down, it also makes me feel like a "sucker" for clinging to what feels like a false hope. I wish that we can all overcome that "sucker" feeling and come to terms with whatever reality faces us, here and in the future.