~ NOVEMBER 2011 INFERTILITY ONE THREAD ~ - Page 4
I'm coming up on 8dpo, which is customarily the point at which I start to freak right out. But this cycle I literally forgot what dpo I was on. I just went over to FF to input my temp and I realized I was getting close to testin' time. Protective mechanism, I think. I still think about pregnancy and babies every 2 seconds but somehow it's all abstract to me. In other words, I am losing hope. In other news, we decided not to sell our house and move right now. Instead we're going to stay put and fix up our place a little. I love a good renovation project, even one on an ultra-low budget, so that's keeping me distracted.
How about you guys?! What's new with you, shesaidboom? I'm thinking of you all. I'm so glad to have this space.
Renovations sound good! I love a good house project. Losing hope, not so good though. It's rough, isn't it? I think this time of year where things get darker makes those things even harder. When are you testing?
I'm doing okay. The progesterone is making me crazy though. I cry all the time and feel awful. I also have intense cravings (like grapefruit..I bought two for the week and completely devoured them today..and raw broccoli) and want to drink cold water 24/7 (I've been testing blood sugars and they're normal, I think my mouth is just dry and my cheeks flushed). I keep feeling like I'm not pregnant even though we're still only 5 days dpo. I'm also wondering if I really have to wait until the 21st to test. Would testing like 10-ish days dpo really be too soon?
I'm also really glad to have this space.
I know it is really late and I should go to bed already but WHOA. shesaidboom - you described exactly what I'm feeling. No, I mean, seriously. Major grapefuit craving - came home from the grocery store today and ripped one apart practically! Drinking cold water 24/7 - check. Wanting to cry all the time - that too. And, yes, being completely non-pg-feeling. Is that crazy or what?
I always thought 10dpo was way too early to test but last time I tested + on 10dpo so now I'm a true believer. I don't count myself out until 12dpo, but mentally I consider 10dpo to be possible, 11dpo expected, and 12dpo last chance. To be responsible I test 13dpo if I'm taking progesterone. So yeah, I'm planning to test Sunday morning, 10dpo. How about you?
Okay, okay, I'm really going to sleep now. Good night!
I know a lot of people who test positive at 10dpo but I think it's best to start around 12 dpo because I subscribe to gozal's way of thought and i just get so depressed with BFNs...even other people's BFNs. :o( I just want this for you ladies so badly because i know what it's like to go through these ups and downs every month.
Gozal, please don't lose hope. It will happen. And the non PG feeling is normal. Hey, this is why most people don't realize they are pregnant until weeks into their pregnancy. Most people don't feel anything!! I still have symptoms that come and go (except for that pesky nausea and fatigue) so i don't think that we can take anything for granted. But YAH to a home renovation project! I love home renovations! DH and I started to do some light stuff when we first moved into this apartment but that has gone to the wayside ever since starting IVF because it's been so exhausting for us (especially because of the traveling). And now, work has gotten insane so I haven't had time to put towards anything else!
Shesaidboom, are you taking progesterone orally? Taking progesterone orally turned me into a MAD WOMAN. I mean seriously, raving mad. I'm usually pretty even keeled but that one month i took oral progesterone, I was always crying and angry. After the BFN, I went back to the office and said that there was no way I was going back on the oral one. I started taking prometrium as suppositories. And, when I went to IVF, that's when i started to take endometrin which are also suppositories and i'm sure that it contributes to my fatigue but at least I'm not feeling insane and incredibly emotional (just somewhat emotional...)
Deborah, when are you testing?
Brichole, how are you doing? Just thinking of you and giving you big virtual hugs!!
cbaa, what's going on with you?
Ok ladies, have a good day. tgif!!!!!
Hi ladies! I took off work yesterday and stayed away from the internet as much as possible. Yesterday and Wednesday were my 2 worse days, but i believe that i've passed everything now and I'm praying that the cramping stops soon and the bleeding lets up some so that I can make it thru the work day today! Thank you all so much for your kind words. I am in such a depressed mood right now. I try to be happy, and then I get to thinking about the fact that I lost another one so early!!!! DH isn't taking it well either, but his way of dealing is by ignoring the topic of the fact that I lost the baby and trying to distract himself with other things to do around the house. He hasn't stopped to ask me how i'm doing emotionally...and has just told me to go to bed for the past 2 nights at like 7pm when i got to hurting so bad i couldn't do anything but lay on the couch and cry. That hurts my feelings too because it's like he doesn't want to help me deal with my pain...but i guess everyone deals with things differently. I am so happy I can come here and talk to you ladies about how i'm feeling though...at least I do have an outlet!!!
Renavoo: My doctor doesn't have any answers on why I would be miscarrying...but before DD#1 I had like 2 early miscarriages and then after I had her i had 3 early MC so...i'm thinking that my body just isn't ready for anotehr pregnancy yet or something. It's so hard to deal with right now though...but i'm trying to be strong.
To top everything off the ONLY time i got on Facebook yesterday the very FIRST picture I see is a couple who is friends with me and DH....and they both have changed their profile pictures and on that picture they have their almost 3 year old holding two pregnancy tests and the male half of the couple is holding a sign that says "MY WIFE IS ------------>" then she's holding a jar of "prego" and that is how they tell everyone she's pregnant and due in June!!!! I lost it and just started crying!!! It's not that i'm not happy for them, but where everyone was commenting she said and i quote "I think connor (their son) is happier about this than we are" Like she isn't super excited to be pregnant again!!! It pissed me off so bad because i was SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy to be pregnant and then I didn't get to keep my baby!!!! Sorry, i have a case of sour grapes right now...but it really drives me crazy when people can't just be happy to be pregnant instead of complaining about it!!!
ANYWAYS, i really hope that everyone else gets their BFP this month!!! I know that you all deserve it!!!