My test date is the 18th. I think that if it is positive, they have me check my betas on the 20th to make sure they are doubling. My mom comes in on the 21st for Thanksgiving, so I have her for emotional support whether that be for excitement or disappointment.
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gozal - that's so weird that we're craving the same things! I'm hoping that's a good sign for both of us. I'm not sure when I'm going to test. My blood test is on the 21st, but I so don't want to wait 10 more days. It's too bad it won't show up 6 days dpo. I want to test now!
deborah - I cannot stand oranges, but grapefruits are making me happy right now. I really hope that test is positive and your betas double. I'm glad your mom will be there for you.
renavoo - I'm using the progesterone suppositories. Hearing the difference for you, I am so glad I'm not on the oral ones.
brichole - big hugs to you. I avoided facebook like the plague after my last miscarriage. I could not stand the pregnancy announcements and new baby photos. Maybe that's a place to stay away from for now. I'm so sorry.
Nothing new here, just dealing with the side effects of the progesterone and really wishing I could test now. I just want to know either way.
Speaking on cravings, I can't stop eating junk... I was doing so good before Vegas but now I just can't get back into it...I had a whoopee pie, fritos, Halloween candy, a honey turkey wrap... I can't stop... I'm cooking brownies right now. I mean, I've been going to the gym, but nutrition has gone out the window... I literally can't tell myself no... I ate lasagna tonight... Someone tell me I'm not blowing my chances because I can't make myself eat right. I blame the Clomid... Oh and I had a pumpkin muffin... This is just this week, not all one day... But I had been doing so well! Oh and there's the Vienna fingers and pizzelle cookies... Gah! Now I'm going to drink cow milk (not organic) with my brownies since I'm babysitting & my sister always has almond milk, but alas, tonight she does not, so I will drink the hormone filled cow milk I brought for DH... Because I can't tell myself no &you can't eat a brownie sans milk...
I'm off to fulfill my desires... Thinking of you all & waiting for testers!
Brichole, BIG HUGS! i am so sorry that you are feeling so down and that your DH isn't being as supportive. I do think that men tend to not know what to do with an emotional woman so i hope that that is what he is feeling but i always found it odd that guys don't realize tht sometimes, we just need a hug! I hope you get some comfort soon. You need and deserve it. As for facebook, yes, stay away from fb...i still don't like fb as much because i remember the pain of fb during the 2 yaers i ttced. Definitely not good feelings.
Shesaidboom, haha i am counting down how many more days i have to take progesterone and estrogen. My last day for taking the drugs are 12/3 so just a few more weeks. I feel like i am going to be a little lost not taking it anymore since i have been taking these pills for around 2-3 months. When are you testing? I am so excited for you!
Gozal, how are you doing?
deborah - so glad he's over his cold!
renavoo - testing on the 21st. That's more than two weeks after IUI #1 though, so I'm thinking I'll test myself, maybe Tuesday. That'd be 10 days dpo. Honestly if tests weren't so expensive I'd probably just test today and then again on Tuesday. I wish I had bought a pack of those cheapy strips before all of this. How long will you have been on the progesterone when you go off? 12 weeks? I'm not sure how long I'll have to stay on it if I get a BFP.
cbaa - I'm crossing my fingers that you trigger Monday. Then you'll soon be in that 2ww with us! You're not blowing your chance with the junk. It's not an always thing, just a post-Vegas thing! It'll be okay.
Today I'm dealing with some crap feelings. I know I should be grateful that dp and I are able to do these treatments and hopefully they'll result in a baby and that's great and all, but I'm really upset that we couldn't have a spontaneous, wonderful surprise like a lot of people. I was watching something on TV that was saying that something like 50% of babies are unplanned. 50%! Why do we have to know the exact day we conceived down to the minute (and it didn't even involve sex!)? Why does our 2ww have to involve suppositories and awful symptoms and throwing up when we may not even be pregnant? Why does getting pregnant for us have to cost so much stress, disappointment, and money? I know, I know..we're lucky we can even do this..right? It sure doesn't feel lucky. I'm so glad to have met you ladies, but I wish that it was in another forum and none of us had any of these problems. I realized today that I've spent most of my 20s wishing, planning, trying, and pining for a baby (TTC since 2007, but hoping and planning, searching forums and communities like these for information and stories about mothering and raising a child, waiting for the 'right time', much longer than that). I'm so scared this is never going to happen for me and dp. I am just not handling this well today.
Deborah- the Brand is Bossa Nova Acerola with Red Peach- it is delicious! I didn't see it at our Stop & Shop but I'm pretty sure I've seen it at Whole Foods- I usually go to Market Basket which is local to the northeast (mostly MA) so you probably don't have one of them! I'm glad DH is better!
Shesaidboom- my DH was expressing that sentiment the other day after watching a movie where the wife told her DH she was pregnant, he just felt so sad we won't have that. I guess just be hopeful that after the first is born, all the troubles disappear and the rest just happen, right. I'm sorry you are feeling so down, I really think it is 'normal', so many emotions TTC. Treat yourself well- a baby is a blessing no matter the mode it takes to get here, once you get your BFP and see your beautiful baby, it won't matter if you needed some extra help. We are all here for you, vent whenever you need to!
I am making Granola today- trying to pass the time while I wait for Monday- grow big my follicles! I also rented Horrible Bosses and Bridesmaids- I was tempted to add Bad Teacher, but really, I don't have time for 3 movies... Before any of that I need to go take care of some leaves that fell in my yard... like 5 trees worth, ay yi yi. Happy Weekend everyone!
Deborah: Your test date is getting closer and closer!! I'm sooooo ready to see your bfp come out of this cycle!!
Renavoo: Go with your cravings or you will eat EVERYTHING in sight!! I went thru that with Jayde and regreted not just eating what i wanted at the time...i seriously ended up eating WAY more than I should have with her...and gained too much weight. I learned my lesson though and listened to my cravings with Emma and only gained 17 lbs!!! (i lost a lot of weight during my pregnancy due to being sick a lot, but i also started that pregnancy over weight so i didn't need to gain as much as i did with jayde) I hope that everything keeps going well!! When do you go back to the doctor?
Cbaa: I hope that you are able to pass your time away and keep growing some follies this weekend!! :) Please let me know how those movies are...i've thought about renting them, but I don't know if DH would really want to watch them with me or not.
shesaidboom: Sending out BIG BIG hugs!!! I know that this is really hard right now, i went thru that the entire time we were TTC emma. You have every right to feel the way you do too...so please know that it's TOTALLY ok to feel like you do. I know that some people don't understand how hard it is on all of us to have to go thru this but i am SOOOOOO grateful to have ladies like you all to talk to when things seem like they just won't get any better.
Gozal: How are things going for you? I hope that you get a BFP this cycle!!!
I just want to say thank you ladies!!! This has been a really rough year for all of us i think and it's amazing that we all have each other to turn to in our times of need. I do feel sad that after this month I will be the only one left, but i've said this before and I would so much rather all of you get your bfps than me have another one right now. You ladies are great friends to me and I love that I can count on each of you for wisdom when i feel lost!!! You are all so wonderful!!!
Cbaa-I went to King Soopers but forgot to buy the juice. Hopefully I'll remember tomorrow.
Brichole- Yes, I realized I'm at the halfway point and boy would that be awesome! We also realized that if I'm pregnant, the day we find out how many heartbeats we have would be around my mom's birthday so that would be really cool!
Thanks for the kind words
Does anyone have any advice for dealing with nausea caused by the progesterone suppositories? I've been throwing up a bit over the past three days, but tonight it's just out of control. I feel so sick. I wish this was a definite baby sign and not just a progesterone symptom!
Shesaidboom, I'm so sorry :o( I totally get what you're saying too. I felt like that a long time as well. Heck, I still feel like that even though I'm lucky enough to get pregnant. But I still question why the road had to be so hard, why we had to spend so much of our savings to get where we are and why we have to be so scared that anything can mean a loss of our babies. I feel like many people who conceive easily don't have this feeling of fear that it can be lost so easily.
I can only tell you that it is all worth it and that most women who want a baby will get a baby, although how they go about achieving it may be varied. If someone had told me in the past about how this was ultimately a test of patience I would have been shocked because, like you're saying, I expected that it would have been so easy- I mean, isn't that what we're taught in school? As for the nausea, ugh that you have it so badly!! I'm dealing with nausea but no vomiting so I'm wondering if that is your sign of pregnancy? I mean, I think that a lot of my major symptoms such as fatigue are increased significantly because i am now getting hormones from the placenta and from the pills. I'm hoping it is a great sign for you. As to what i do, I make sure i have food by the bed. I graze...I basically eat like 3 small meals plus I eat every hour and a half...i try to eat things like a banana or a few nuts or a few crackers...whatever my stomach can, well, stomach. And, I find walking, especially outside in the slight cold, really helps. But definitely eat a tiny bit when you feel a little nauseated and get whatever you can down. It's around 4am today and I am up because I fell asleep last night without eating dinner and i woke up this morning starving and nauseated to the point of feeling like i was going to vomit. I had some ginger cookies by the bed to stabilize myself and then ran out and just had a bowl of cereal so I feel a bit better now. I hope that all works for you too! (By the way, the actual length of duration of the progesterone will differ depending on physician preferences. I'll be on it for 10 weeks because after that, the placenta should be fully formed and therefore capable of producing enough progesterone to sustain the pregnancy.)
Cbaa, what did you think of the movies? I watched Bridesmaids on a plane when i was coming back from a business trip and i have to say...I wasn't a huge fan. It was rather depressing, I thought. I'll leave it at that but I was shocked because of the amazing reviews that I didn't like it so much. I'm curious what you think. Great video of development by the way! I looked up a lot of photos during the process about how the egg and eventually the embryo looks at each step of the process but it was so cool to see it animated and put to that cool song! I actually may download the song too. just really neat.
Brichole, you're amazing. Thank you. No matter what, I'm sticking with you until you get your sticky bean...you deserve to have happiness too and I'm excited for you to get your happily ever after.
Deborah, here's hoping!!
Ok, now that i ate and no longer feel nauseated, I think it's time for me to try to sleep again. Big hugs everyone, I'm thinking of you!!!
Today is a much better day. The bleeding is getting MUCH lighter which makes me feel better, and DH and I have decided to keep trying until January(a month before my surgery) Then after my reduction surgery I will pick back up on TTC in May or June....I really hope that we get to see a sticky BFP before my surgery though...it really won't hurt my feelings if i have to put it off another year or more. DH looked me in the eyes the other day and told me he understands who much i want another child now and that he's willing for us to try...but he doesn't want to do any medicated treatments anymore...and i respect his thoughts on that. So, if I can't get pregnant and stay pregnant without the help of medical personell we won't be having a baby...but if my body will FINALLY start working with me then hopefully by the end of next year I will be holding another little bundle of joy!!!
I really am ready for you ladies to start testing...i'm going crazy here!!! :)
Hey guys. I got a BFN this morning. I know it could still show up but I am feeling even less hopeful than before. I'm also banning myself from facebook because I just can't take it anymore. Honestly I am avoiding anyone who doens't know about my situation because I can't pretend my life isn't derailing right now. I guess an SA and Clomid are in my (well, and DH's) very near future.
OTOH, shesaidboom, I think throwing up might be an excellent sign - I have never gotten sick from progesterone supps! They make me emotionally insane and make my breasts feel sore, sensitive, and full, but that's it. Is that a side effect listed on the insert? I think nausea maybe, but not vomiting. So I am hopeful for you!
brichole, I'm so, so glad to hear you feeling better! And that DH understands the depth of what you want/need. I hope he will also be open to medical interventions, if you need them, which hopefully you won't.