Thank you all again, so much...Today we are taking flowers to her...Due date was yesterday & it was hard :( It was so rainy here though, so we couldn't go...You are all amazing, thank you, we appreciate every one of you.
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Btw, we feel & smell her in the house, it is odd. I know not everyone believes that stuff, but we smell her so strongly, she had a sweet scent to her, not the brand new baby smell....Everytime we cry or talk out loud to her, we smell her, like she is telling us it is okay. Dw & I sure miss her so badly still though, but i doubt that feeling will ever subside....xoxoxo
At her graveside::
What beautiful pictures! Thanks so much for sharing.
Did the hospital have that outfit for her or was it something that you picked up?
The sadness never goes away but it gets different. Continue to take pics at the cemetary, It is kind of neat to see the progression through the grief process. Visiting her will become a part of who you are and there will actually be some excitement to share with her what you know (decorating for holidays, etc.), picnicking with her, etc. I actually gain joy when I visit my so do my children, it is still sad but not in the same way.
I really wish you healing and peace during this difficult time.
Thank you again ladies...Nicole, that outfit is actually something that our Aunt Janice brought from her home. She had picked it up one day, on sale, thinking someday, she could give it to a baby in the family, but it had been sitting in her house for quite some time. It was such the perfect little outfit!! So when Ellie passed, she brought it to the hospital and said "I think this is the baby I was meant to give this Angel outfit to, it's been sitting in my house for years." It gave me chills.
A lady named Faith, came to the hospital to take pictures. She is with a group called NILMDTS (Now I Lay me Down To Sleep) and they come and take infant loss pictures, free of charge. They basically come at the drop of a hat, she was there within the hour of us calling her from the hospital. Amazing, and so glad we have these pictures. April is actually a professional photographer by trade, it's what she does for work, but obviously for apparent reasons, she was not able to take our daughter's pictures herself....
We have been to visit her a lot already, she is about 25 or 30 minutes from our house, so we can't go every single day, although I'd love to :(
We decorated for Halloween, and 3 or 4 other times, and we will have her headstone in the spring....
Really just want her back with us :( She is all I think about, seriously every single second.
Anyway, I am rambling, so Ill shut up....Thank you all for listening.
I haven't been back to the DDC since Halloween, but I wanted to respond to this anyway. I'm so sorry for your loss. I wish I had had time to check back sooner and give you more support. It makes me very sad that your sweet girl never got to see the world. Thank you for the reminder to appreciate every moment with my little one. It's very strong of you to focus on that little good that can come of such a sad occurrence. Please don't feel that you should stop posting here about her.
Merry Christmas to you all....We celebrated Thanksgiving & Christmas on the same day (Thanksgiving is the day we did it all) in hopes to knock out 2 major holidays at once, instead of trying to celebrate them separately....We took Elliana a pretty pink Christmas tree, decorated it, and tried to make her feel included in our celebration. It is bittersweet to celebrate this without her in our arms, but the memories of her are,, and will always remain beautiful....Thank you all again, for your kind words. I will share a video on YouTube that I made for her, and post the picture of her tree....Love those babies extra tight this Christmas, and be forever thankful that they are in your arms, and not just your heart & memories :(
your video is beautiful! What a wonderful tribute to your daughter.
I love the pink tree and the grave looks wonderful, my little guy has a green tree w/ lots of decorations and we put up luminarias last night. No fun having to visit your kids at the cemetery. Thinking of your family this holiday season.