i never expected staying at home to be a picnic. but i'm so saddened and frustrated by the fact that my dc seems so disrespectful and even disdainful of me. he tells me to go away several times a day. deliberately disobeys a lot. i am to the point where i am looking for work outside the home so my husband can stay home instead (i could make a better living anyway with my skillset). i am so sad because for years and years (before i had children and even up until recently) all i wanted to do was stay at home, make a happy household and homeschool.
i understand that things don't always work out how you think they should, but i can't help but feel like a failure. i am laid back, practice gentle discipline, extended breastfeed, co sleep... the works. my son is 2.5. i know its probably normal, i guess, his behavior, but i just can't help but feel completely disrespected and worthless!! i don't want him to feel indebted to me, i just want a loving son (which he *can* be!). this phase sucks. thanks for reading. any input would be appreciated.