Long time reader, first time poster here...
My 13.5 month old seems to be weaning himself, *sigh*. Since I stopped pumping at work and transition to cow's milk during the day my supply has, naturally, dwindled to very little but we still nurse first thing in the morning in bed together, and before bedtime. Sometimes he still gets excited, but the duration of the sessions is either very short (falls asleep) or very long (probably not getting anything) and if for some reason we have to skip one, he doesn't really care.
But *I* care. I don't feel ready to let this go yet. I've heard that hormonal shifts with weaning can cause havoc, but the last three days I have been absolutely leveled with anxiety. Shaking, nausea, muscle aches, panicky and racing thoughts, hopelessness and despair. The psychological feelings don't seem related to nursing specifically, but rather a whole range of issues, real and imagined - I hate my job, my marriage isn't good, I'm missing my child growing up, we aren't doing the best for our son, the world is a horrible place, he isn't happy, is daycare good enough, how will he live as an adult on a planet with 7 billion other people, will he have clean water, etc. There haven't been any real changes at home to blame this on.
Has anyone else experienced this, or is it just an unfortunate situation of timing? I'm starting to feel a little bit crazy, but if it's just hormones and it will pass, that may helpful to know. I've always been prone to anxiety, but I don't know how many more days of us I can handle!