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[tolovemercy]

I'd hoped that by the time I was this far into my baby-having years that I'd have developed better coping skills for the first trimester.  The anxiety, at times, is all-consuming.  I wish I felt sicker (or better, depending on the moment), I wish I could hear the baby's heartbeat NOW, I wish I could just KNOW that everything will be fine- or even that it won't- it's the not knowing that is so hard.   The connection to the baby is so delicate at this stage- the only REAL proof I have of this life-changing person inside me is a tiny purple line on a stick.  I am just so anxious for days and weeks to pass, til I can hear my baby's heartbeat and feel little fluttery movements.

And, alternately, I think about all the what-ifs and HOWs.  HOW will we afford this birth? What if something goes wrong?  HOW am I going to mother these four tiny people?  
 

Anyway, I'm posting this because I needed to vent and in hopes that I'm not the only one feeling this. 

[beccabus]

Awwww, praying for you Erin...  I understand.  I have all those same thoughts too, but I really try and force myself to put the active worrying out of my mind.  I let myself consider the concerns, but then (and I'm not trying to get all preachy-preachy on you...BUT) I really just give it to God.  Worry can cause so much stress and damage to the body and it accomplishes nothing.  Read Matthew 6:25-34 over and over and over :) :)  

[XanaduMama]

I'm normally not at all anxious--about pregnancies or anything, really. I was a super-confident pregnant person both of my last two times... but this time: I don't know if it's because it's my third, or what, but I really share you sense of anxiety and really wanting some confirmation other than the BFPs and the absence of AF. I'm older now...more busy...less time... so you're right that it's anxiety both about what could go wrong with the baby AND "how are we going to do this?"

Hoping this passes very soon, for all of us. I'm hoping that getting to hear a heartbeat or getting some other confirmation that there's actually something in there will help.

[MaerynPearl]

Off topic but OMG HI!!!!!!!

[tolovemercy]

Originally Posted by MaerynPearl 

Off topic but OMG HI!!!!!!!

HI!! I am so shocked that we are here!  How is little Mae?  Weren't we like...JUST pregnant...?

[MaerynPearl]

Originally Posted by tolovemercy 

HI!! I am so shocked that we are here!  How is little Mae?  Weren't we like...JUST pregnant...?

I know, right?!

Mae's great, hard to believe she's 14 months old. Been walking for months, starting to talk now. And your little Joseph?

[tolovemercy]

becca-  thanks so much.  i really needed to be reminded of that.  worrying doesn't change anything.  

xanadumama- i just saw your post in the other forum.  :hug  this part is really hard,   btw, were you in the march 08 ddc?  your sn looks familiar...:)

mae- Joe is great.   Cutting molars, and was my earliest walker at 10.5 months.  He is nursing a ton, which is both great and super annoying at the same time.

[MaerynPearl]

Mae was my earliest walker too, at 9 months her brother wasn't even crawling yet, he didn't want to use his legs... and she started walking at 9 months, 2 days after her daddy came home from his 6 month deployment!

Also, molars. Ew. We're working on all four of the first year molars right now. :(

[XanaduMama]

Originally Posted by tolovemercy 

xanadumama- i just saw your post in the other forum.  :hug  this part is really hard,   btw, were you in the march 08 ddc?  your sn looks familiar...:)

Yes! I wasn't super-active in that DDC, but my dd was born 3/15/08. Nice (if somewhat surreal) to be back in a DDC!