livacreature - sounds like a scene from a tv show or movie...you didn't happen to film yourself, did you?
karli - my cycles were wackadoo before DS was born, but actually normalized after he was born. i think being pregnant somehow reset things. maybe you'll have a similar experience. and lucky you to have a super smiler
More Kids - umm...well, we just planned to have two, and now we have two. and i just said to DH that I'd like DD to skip age 3 all together.
3 is kicking my ass. i really don't know how DS will come out of this unscathed. I try to be patient, to remain calm, to remember that he's at the age where he needs to explore/exert autonomy, blah blah blah. But every day I lose it on him. every day I hear myself using horrible, mean, sarcastic tones of voice and saying horrible things (e.g. today, after nap, he took off his wet diaper on his own and changed back into underpants. i told him he needed to wash his hands cuz he was touching a pee-soaked diaper. a tantrum ensued. he got all snotty. he kept wiping his nose with his hands and sleeves. so he really needed to wash his hands. this went on for over an hour, during which i was literally saying "Do NOT touch me with those gross hands!" "No, you can't watch me change Annika's diaper first. Wash your hands NOW! Get out of my room!" [picked him up, put him in the hallway. shut my door with me and DD in and DS out])
I am a bitch. an utterly bitchy mom. And I know I want to model good appropriate behavior for him...but I just can't anymore. I feel like most of the time I can't stand to be around him . Part of it, I think, is feeling very protective of DD...especially during this past week and a half when DS has been sick....since she's often in my arms, I end up feeling like I don't want DS around us. I catch myself having horrible looks on my face when he's around. I don't smile at him nearly as much as I used to. I don't have the patience to do things for him that I know he can do himself. He makes so many demands and I wonder what' s the right balance between letting him feel some control and not letting him think we'll do whatever he says.