I feel so childish for the feelings I am having. I need to vent; I cant really tell anyone (not even my dh) how upset I am. Also, my keyboard is missing the apostrophe key, so I apologize for that in advance!
I have a sister who is 2 years younger than I am. She is not married, no kids, lives by herself. She makes a good salary, slightly less than what I make - a really good salary for a single person.
I have 3 kids and have been married for 9 years. My husband was recently laid off, I work a full time job with a good salary and I also work 2 additional part time jobs, more because I want to, although life wouldn't be as easy if I didn't have them.
This fall, my grandfather (well, our grandfather) gave my sister 10k to put towards a new car. We have been saving, saving, saving for a newer-used minivan - we have a sedan that runs well and a volvo station wagon w/ a blown head gasket. Three kids in the back of the sedan is just not working anymore now that they are bigger but still in boosters/carseats. But, whatever. I can deal with that.
Then, my sister decides that she is going to take a cruise through the Panama Canal this spring. My grandfather decides to give her the trip as a gift, complete w/ a suite on the ship, etc. This I cant begrudge - he is sending our entire family to Disneyland and we are very thankful for that.
The last one is the hardest for me. He is buying my sister a home for her Christmas present this year. I am so crazy, uncontrollably jealous about this. It is all I can do not to snap when she asked my husband to help move. The rent she pays is half of what we pay and she has no other expenses. On top of everything else that has fallen in to her lap this year I just cant even deal with it. We would LOVE a house. We would love a yard for our kids. I feel like the black sheep of the family and I dont even know why. She closes on a fancy new construction condo with amazing views, next week. I think her condo has more sq footage than what we have with 5 people!
In any case, I want to be happy for her without this gnawing at me. I hate this feeling.
**UPDATE - JANUARY**
Just heard from my mom that my grandfather will also be buying us a house (well, it will actually be mine)! I'm still in disbelief. I do wish the communication had been a bit better so I didn't have to stew for 2 months and now I feel bad for...thinking unkind thoughts. Anyway, I just wanted to update.
Edited by greenmom4 - 1/18/12 at 12:19pm