Hello all! I'm actually surprised there are so many people who already know that they are due in August...it makes me feel better about "jumping the gun." LOL
I took my pregnancy test yesterday, but I knew the day before because, of all things, I couldn't stop peeing and had brown discharge. Somehow it just clicked and I knew, didn't think 'maybe', knew. I usually don't know before hand, as evidenced by the dozens of negative tests I've taken. Maybe I'm finally catching on? It would be about time, because this is baby #8!
I'm 31, married, with 5 boys and 2 girls ages from 11 on down to 2 years. This is by far the largest gap between babies for us; previous to this pregnancy our biggest gap was 21 months. This one will be 38 months. Bizarrely, I already feel like I've forgotten what a baby is like! And I just finished giving away all my baby stuff, clothes, maternity clothes, all of it. LOL
For the first 11 years of our marriage, my husband worked and I was a stay at home homeschooling mom, but we switched last year and I currently work more than full time as a sander at a custom wood cabinet maker. I actually enjoy the job and am doing well (just got my second raise in six months) but will not be able to work there the entire pregnancy. So we have to figure all that out.
I don't know exactly when we will tell everyone, but it will be after the new year. With baby #8 you know there are going to be plenty of people not happy for us, and our current economic situation doesn't make it any better. Also, my best friend just had a still born son in June after struggling with infertility, my other best friend has been trying and trying to have another baby but instead has had three miscarriages, and my sister has been trying for 3 years and can't get pregnant at all, so it is just hard for me to announce happily that we've got #8 coming. Do y'all know what I mean?
Another twist on this event is at the beginning of March of this year I was 210 lbs. Right now, after working my butt off (literally) I am 149 lbs. I was hoping to be down to 125 by my birthday, and while I am totally okay with that not happening, I will admit that I am nervous about putting it all back on. I have been doing Jillian Michaels workouts and will for a couple more months, but I do not think they will work the whole pregnancy. Pretty sure they won't, actually.
All of this may make you think I am not happy for this baby, but let me assure you I am ecstatic. Every one of my children is so wonderful and a huge blessing, and none of them have come to us in "ideal" situations, so I know this will be the same way. Things will work out and everything will be more than worth it when I hold the next beautiful perfect child in my arms. (And doubly so if it were twins. I know I'm crazy but I want twins.)
Long boring post, sorry, so I'll just mention really quickly that this will be our fourth natural childbirth with a midwife at her birthing center. My last birth was definitely the best so I look forward to improving on it with hopefully a smaller baby. We are moderately crunchy, co-sleeping, baby-wearing, rear-facing, self-weaning...and when I am the cook we largely eat natural whole foods. Less so when my hubby cooks. The least crunchy thing about us is I have been completely unable to convince hubby about cloth diapers, so we go disposable. If we had gone cloth with our first one, or second, or even fourth, you know how much money we would have saved? ug. but, of course, we were never sure about having another.
Finally signing off...sorry for dumping on y'all. Congratulations to everyone!!