There must be something in the air. I'm feeling down/agitated. Not sure if it ties into hormonal stuff (hard to tell when you don't get a period anymore.)
Wishing everyone a very happy, healthy, and prosperous new year!
I'm going to post one last time here and then I'll move to the Jan thread.
I love the idea for a New Year's word and I think mine will be GRACE as in : 1. The exercise of love, kindness, mercy, favor; disposition to benefit or serve another. It keeps popping up here and there for me and I feel like I should acknowledge it! I think it has a lot to do with a path I see before myself... combining teaching early childhood and the experience I had teaching in the inner city of Baltimore... we'll see.
My love to all of you. THANK YOU, THANK YOU to all of you wonderful new friends that have brought so much to my world this 2011. I truly appreciate having this "place" and you all.
*GODDESS BLESS US ONE AND ALL!*
feelings- feeling kind of wonky. I'm not sure if it's the flu, being generally worn down, the approaching new year, or what but I feel off kilter. Sort of like there is something I need to do, but I'm not sure what it is. I'm a bit worried that I'm going to "just do something" and it'll be the wrong thing. Very odd feeling. Almost paralyzed because I don't want to do the wrong thing, while at the same time really wanting to do /something/. I just have to figure out what that something is! LOL
(((hugs))) I have been keeping a low profile for a few so I understand but totally here to listen, offer a hug, positive vibes and energy.
Well, but...what else can I do? I love him. Would you (collective you, not You you) give up on the one you love because of addictions? I dunno...it hasn't gotten to the point of needing to save myself first, or my boy.
I am going to M's tomorrow! I have to be up at 3:30am to be on the road at 4:00 My plane leaves at 8am, but it's a 2 hour drive to the airport, and you know you have to be there ahead, a bit, for the dang security. But YAY!!!
I would be doing just what you are doing and be there. Have fun, I must have been gone for a bit cause I feel like I was just saying enjoy your trip:) Enjoy your trip!
job- I've been job hunting and so far nada. I'm counting on 2012 as being a year of opportunity and prosperity.
health- I need to get a pp overhaul. I think my PPD is slowly rearing it's head. I hope not, but I also know that boot-strappping doesn't work and with 4 kiddos I can't afford to wait too long. So all you FE and EO and herbal and tapping goddesses... ideas? General anxiety, sense of impending dread, metallic taste in the mouth, loss of satisfaction in eating (I get hungry, I eat, I'm no longer hungry but I'm not "satisfied" either), zero libido, and a very very VERY short emotional fuse (not just in terms of yelling at kiddos, but also in terms of bursting into tears at the drop of a hat sort of stuff). I've resisted conventional medication for PPD in the past but have a limited budget and limited time (I need things that will work fast, not ramp up over months).
I hope you find a job that's perfect for you.
I had PPD for 18 months and I feel your pain. I felt worthless as far as being a good Mom, cried at the drop of a hat. I mean someone would say hello and I would cry, watching a commercial, anything would turn the tears on. Over all drained, just at the end and feeling I had no more to give at times. I wish I was educated in the FE's enough to offer up a few but I know there are some well informed Mamas here. I hope you feel better asap.
To answer the question before I run back out, it's emotional/mental health stuff. I'm not dealing well with this pregnancy. I'm ok, we're ok, but I just don't feel like I have anything positive to say, and I don't want to burden you guys with my downer attitude. I'm still around, kinda, just have nothing to say.
No burden at all, we are all here to listen, support and help. Thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way.
I so need a word but have no clue. I think I am going to pull a rune.
Clay, I have not had experience with ppd, but Nat Mur is the cell salt for grief and calc phos for exhaustion. Star of Bethleham or good old Rescue Remedy for general trauma. Are you getting your iron, your vitamin D? Hugs, you! I totally understand resisting doing the medications, but you have SO much on your plate - maybe you need to give yourself permission to try them. You can always wean off them, do the lowest possible dose. Wishing you well in the job search!
I am going to meditate on it for a couple of days and choose finally on New Year's Day.
I had to go on meds. They take time but not as long as I thought and I was able to go off them in a short period of time.
Love the idea of meditating on it for a few:) I am going to do that!
Word for the year...I'm thinking mine with be either perseverance or persistence or perception. I'm not totally sure but something with that strong "p" start. I will keep thinking on it and decide tomorrow.
Yeah, my mom is the same way. My ds's father pointed out, years ago, that maybe my mom was taking my "opposite" parenting path as a criticism on how she did hers. A rejection, of sorts. I pointed it out to her and she didn't think so, but she has always been hyper critical of me, and especially my parenting.
I will never forget one year-- it was Thanksgiving, and at the time, my ds and I were vegetarian. We all were up at my brother and SILs. SIL had a turkey in the oven, and I asked if she minded if I stuck my tofurkey in there alongside. SIL had no problem with it. DS was about 2 at the time. Probably not even that old.
My mom comes huffing up the stairs from the basement, at one point, glares at me...and I was like "What?" and she goes "I'm just sick of you and your ways" Um, huh?? That SO came out of nowhere. I was shocked and stung and really hurt. And confused. No earthly idea where that had come from. But she's still like that. Even though she will actually thank me for helping with dishes and stuff, at her house. I have to admit I did used to just leave my clothes on the bathroom floor, but I don't do anything like that anymore. I go out of my way to do things right, but honestly? I will never be right enough for my mother
Feel better, mama
You did, actually. I was here at Thanksgiving. This is the only time of year I get to come up less than two months apart.
Off to the January thread!