Hi- I'm only about 5 1/2 weeks pregnant, and haven't posted anything in this area yet because it just seems too soon.
But OMG my moods have been crazy insane the past two days. I seriously feel like I am totally unbalanced. I am SO ANGRY. Just irate, for no reason. Or, at least, no good reason. Like, maybe I should be a "3" on the Anger Scale of 1-10, and instead I'm a 16.
I seriously yelled at my boss today WHILE I WAS HOLDING BACK TEARS OF SADNESS at the same time. Like, how does that even work? I work in a HS, and I seriously wanted to bash a couple of kids' heads against the wall when they were being jerks to me. Like, I wanted to cause them bodily harm. I could envision myself laying hands on them and going nuts.
This is so unlike me. I usually lean toward depression and anxiety. Not anger. As a matter of fact, I usually assume positive motivations to people, even when its a bit naive. I almost NEVER get into power struggles with the kids. But today.... oh my heavens, like I said, I went from zero to RAGE in no time at all. And not just once, either. All day long my moods were bouncing around like mad.
Seriously- I've never felt so out of control. And part of me is watching myself from some kind of sane place and saying, "Belia, you are screwing up so badly right now." I am acting like a crazy person.
Is this normal? Is this just hormones? I don't remember ever feeling this way with my first pg.









