Jukim, hope you have a short stay here, I did, but these ladies have been nothing but generous and supportive. It's truly amazing.
Had my first u/s today and saw a black dot. Still too early for anything else. In another two weeks we'll have another to hopefully hear the heartbeat.
I don't know why TTC so long has really affected my feelings about pregnancy. I was talking to my coworker today and she asked why I'm so nervous, since as far as I know, length of time TTC does not correlate with viability of pregnancy. I told her it's just been a looooong time being immersed in the struggle that some of us go through to procreate. I've seen so many people get pregnant, but also a lot of people lose babies, have failed fertility treatments, etc. It has changed me in a lot of ways. I think about other people and their secret struggles that you never see in real life a lot more. Hopefully this will wear off and I will be able to be more joyful and less worried. But I know it has deepened my empathy for others which is something I will carry with me always. I have been so inspired by the bravery of so many women who continue to pursue their dream of being mothers. I almost gave up many times but when I saw women who had had a lot of losses and tried even longer than we had still talking about hope, it carried me through.