Two years ago I had my first baby and went through a terrible time with PPD. One of my biggest concerns when I was told to get on medicine (20 mg of Cymbalta) was I didn't want to stop nursing. My son was 5 months old when I realized that I could no longer push off getting on the medicine and I found a psychologist that specializes in women's health and she felt that it would be safe for the baby to continue nursing while I was taking the Cymbalta, as long as I kept on eye on him. My husband was extremely anti the idea and from day one wanted me to stop nursing and give formula while on the medicine. He had no actual research to base his feelings off of - they were just feelings, and it made me feel so guilty and selfish for wanting to keep nursing even while taking medicine that maybe could cause harm. Eventually he came to terms with it, I nursed my son for 18 months and there never seemed to be an issue.
Now that he is almost two we'd like to try to have another baby. Because PPD is a concern we want to come up with a real action plan now before I get pregnant so we are more prepared to prevent and deal with my emotional health. While we were talking he mentioned that he still is uneasy about me nursing while taking medicine, that his gut feeling tells him it's bad, and he doesn't want to find out in 20 years that we somehow messed up our baby because I nursed while taking medicine.
I feel like an awful mother. I love nursing and I love the close bond it creates. Am I just being selfish and putting my future baby at risk by taking my medicine while nursing? Has anyone else taken medicine for PPD and nursed their baby - if so, what are your thoughts? I need some real support, I feel like maybe because of the PPD I was just never meant to be a mother...










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