LaLaLaLa, I get that feeling too. It's hard, but I do believe there is more good than bad in it. Still, be careful and gentle with yourself; this is a tough time of year.
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kerc, hugs, mama. I'd be backing out fast, and you DO have the family emergency for real. I hope it can be resolved smoothly with your mother.
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JenLove, Shanti, I am right there with you. So missing my place, and still holding on to a small hope that I could have it back. And if not it specifically, something much like it where I can do all those things again and be among my people. The stuff absolutely does. Not. Matter.Â
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JayGee, my mom claims that menopause was "no big deal." That said, she had giant fibroids and her uterus removed at 39, and I distinctly remember a my-mom-is-totally-insane period of my adult life. My sisters corroborate that claim, so we're calling BS on mom. She didn't seem to have a ton of physical symptoms, just was a raving lunatic for a few years, driving all her daughters to paranoia. Where's that article sparkle linked here a few months back? It was a good one!
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All you ladies looking at the half distance, I want to too!
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But I am afraid my back condition is getting in the way. I have been able to walk/run on sand, and it's hard and good. I do about 4mi. But if I do too many days in a row, I get the terrible hip/leg pain (which originates in the L5/S1). I am totally dependent on NSAIDs, and I am still not getting relief. Thinking about taking my xray films to another doc for recommendations, but since I am definitely not interested in (or a good candidate for) surgery, all I'll get is more NSAIDs and more exercises, which I do anyway. Bah. I lost 1/3 of the weight I'd gained in the run-up to the move, and then just hit a wall. Time for phase 2.
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Work on the writing has been going well again. I had to make some big changes and then there was a realization that, to do this, I essentially needed to be able to get into character, and said character is not a very pleasant person, so I really need to do the writing while dh and kids are out of the house (or, I suppose, I am out of the house). So, the result is that I can spent about 4 hours a day writing, and I do some cleaning and stuff while they are home, instead of doing all that work while they are out of the house. It is easier when they are out, but it also creates a sort of "housecleaning mystique," where the house is always magically clean(ish) for them, and I bitterly, resentfully clean it in their absence.
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Again today, will hit the beach and then write as long as I can manage it. It rained (!!! a lot!!!) last night, so I am sure the sand will be kind of crusty and painful, but whatever.