I don't often post here but I'm at my wit's end. I've been working a lot for the past few years on personal growth, raising my vibration, practicing gratitude, calming my anger, allowing myself to succeed in small steps. I have a good PT job now that pays fairly well. I'm even keeping up with the house more. I've made a lot of changes in who I choose to be and have a loooooong way to go on my journey.
So my current snafu is my DH. I don't know how to keep his negativity from bringing me down. It feels like every time I release one of my blocks and am motivated, getting things done, his verbal abuse slaps me down, saps all my strength, & I lose my forward momentum.
Today was a bad day. He was in a rage all morning. Told me I was braindead. Asked the kids how it felt to know that their mama doesn't care about them.
I just don't know what to do. I want to be so confident in myself that his pain and anger don't collapse my growth. But I don't know how. Short of leaving him, what can I do?