Congratulations! You are definitely brave, mama. I loved your analogy of how involuntary pushing is like someone taking a remote control and hitting "push" over and over again...that's been my experience as well. It's so surreal how powerful the urge is, makes me aware how strong our primal nature truly is. Also, did the smoothie with a piece of placenta help much? Did it help with blood flow and your energy levels at all? I've been under the assumption that placenta smoothies don't help much unless there's a good amount of placenta in it.
Lastly, I've been following your story and I'm happy to hear things are going well with you and your husband. I assume your ex has left you alone?
Thank you. :) I'm kinda on the fence about the smoothie helping. It seems by the time the placenta comes out and you prepare the smoothie, the bleeding should be slowing a bit anyway. However, I do feel it helped with my energy. I'd only gotten 4 hours of sleep the night before, so I do believe it has natural fatigue remedial properties. My ex only contacted me once, on Facebook, at which point, I blocked him and the same day, his mom stalker messaged me, but that was just over a month ago and I haven't included him on the birth certificate. DH and I entertain the thought of him adopting Levi. Last week, he was talking to him(baby talk) and referred to himself as daddy by accident. He looked at me, when he caught himself, and said "I don't care. I'll be his daddy." I really could have cried.