I went in for my first midwife appt yesterday and she couldn't detect a heartbeat. A quick scan came up with a sac and nothing else and a vaginal ultrasound found a babe with no heartbeat who was about the size of a 6 weeker. I was 9 weeks pregnant and apparently had a missed miscarriage.
I chose to have a D&C and am now home recovering. We are, of course, very sad but I don't feel broken by this and I know I'll be ok. I'm really grateful too, that I was able to convince the midwife to check for a heartbeat despite her reluctance to try before 12 weeks. I'm so glad I didn't have to endure xmas with the anxiety that something wasn't right, nor 3 more weeks of feeling nauseous and exhausted for no reason.
I wish all of you a happy, healthy 9 months and look forward to welcoming another babe in when the time is right.