I wish I could change everything.
I didn't even have high expectations... All I wanted was a drug-free, vaginal birth.
I wish I wouldn't have chosen the c-section. Stupid doctor. Stupid peer pressure.
I hated every single aspect of the c-section. ALL OF IT.
I'll lay in bed sometimes and imagine the doctor slicing my stomach open... I imagine the anesthesiologist putting that huge needle into my back... It makes me sick.
I'll be damned if I don't go for a VBAC and have 72 hours of labor before I go for the c-section next time. Hmph.
Hugs. I know you did the best you could in the situation. Didn't you stop progressing at 3 cm for a really long time? You probably didn't have much choice other than a c-section at that point. I mean, being in the hospital. I would have done the same thing.