I suppose this is more of a vent than anything.....for every working woman in the world, choosing between motherhood and a work life.
I'm about to go on maternity leave early next year and I'm worried that the whole time I'm off, I'll wish I was back at work because of missed opportunities and promotions etc. I don't want to think about my job while I'm off. I just want to soak up having a new baby instead.
There's another two girls there around my age who have had their babies and now they're in daycare so they are at work every day now and able to take on additional projects etc etc. I'm just hanging on till I leave and will be able to take on the additional projects when I'm back, but I feel left behind now :-( I suppose a bit of jealousy is part of it too. I see them working on their exciting projects and think if only I wasn't leaving, I could be a part of that project. having said that though, when they went on leave, they probably looked at me working on projects and felt the same way.
It's awful to think and feel this way. Especially since we ttc so long and have now been successful. I just want to look forward to this new baby, enjoy my time off and being a mom and then go back to work part time with a new life. I've been so excited about this for so long.