Yesterday at around 11:30pm, my close uncle who was only 19 years old passed away. My family and I live in the UK while my uncle/cousin was in Malaysia at the time. He's not considered my cousin because he is my uncle (my grand uncle's son) however due to his age he was my best friend. He passed away at around 3am (malaysian time) on 20/12/11. He was driving alone, back from a night out with his friends and he suddenly blacked out and crashed into a road divider. Due to this his pelvis bone was shattered. He eventually bled to death after an excrutiating hour of no help. The news hit us when my 18 year old brother in Hungary informed us. He was crying so much. Then my mother started crying so much and let me tell you I have never in my life seen my mother cry this much. It is painful to watch. I am only 15 years old and I was shocked and didn't know how to react to his death. I feel as if his death has caused me to lose the taste of life. I am still very confused and don't know what to feel.
Is it normal for me to feel sad, confused and a variety of different emotions at once? I feel more shocked and depressed than the normal 'crying sad'. The worst thing about it was that we knew before his parents and it was so painful to hear them cry. This is really my first relative loss that i feel very upset over and i feel that his death has caused me to feel less interested with life.
Please can someone help me?