T--V, I'm so happy to see your response! For some reason, I didn't get notified of your post, and just noticed it now when I came back over to post again. It's so good to know that someone else is still believing in the new vibration.
I am feeling so much better now that I'm back into regular practice. One thing that's helping is that I'm no longer pressuring myself to do other exercise in addition to my yoga. Previously, I'd felt that I needed to briskly walk or march for at least 30 minutes, at least three times a week. Now I've got nothing against getting out there and walking in the fresh air, I do enjoy it when I get the chance, but being so regimented and feeling like I needed it for the 30 minutes of aerobic exercise...well, it's just too time consuming at this point of my life.
My 12yo, who was walking and doing yoga (she would insist on doing it even though she didn't like it) with me before I kind of dropped all exercise last summer, has worked into her own routine of taking a three mile walk nearly every day with the dog, with her headphones on and her music blaring. She is so fast that I couldn't keep up with her at all when I tried to accompany her a while back (when I'd first started getting more active again), plus she seems to really cherish this as something she does on her own. At this time, she's not at all interested in doing yoga anymore so now she has her thing and I have mine.
I feel my Kundalini yoga is my main yoga, and I actually do work up quite a sweat at it and I know my heart is beating really rapidly at times, though I don't know if stays speeded up for the full 20 minutes required for it to be called a cardio workout. But it's helping me to keep moving into a more intense integration between body, mind, and spirit. I do still try to do the Hatha easy floor workout at least two or more times a week, which makes me feel so stretched out and relaxed. When I do my Kundalini, I actually follow it, most of the time, by going to the end of my Hatha video so I can do the corpse pose without actually having to watch the time myself, and then join the Hatha lady, Diane for the little stretches like two-knees twist that she does coming out of that pose. I'm not even trying to do the 5 Tibetan Rites anymore, as they're supposed to be a daily practice, and I've just given up on trying to get up an hour earlier each morning. I usually do my yoga in the afternoons after finishing lessons, or earlier in the day if I have a long break.
A lot of my meditation now takes place in the big closet where we are growing tomato plants that dh started from seed, and basil plants. I feel a real spirit of thankfulness to them for being a part of us and for allowing us to be part of them, too.
I'm preparing mentally for another hot summer, because it looks like we'll be without ac again this time, and I keep reminding myself that yoga originated in India, one of the hottest parts of the world. I'm actually believing that this may be the time when a lot of my excess weight drops off. I just really want to push through and never go so many months without practicing again. Now, I don't want to be regimented about it either, but I just realize that, for me, a big part of my spiritual growth is coming about through learning to more deeply experience the unity between the spiritual and material world. I keep thinking of the phrase "getting out of my head and into my body" -- but that's not exactly what I mean. I want to be in both places at once, and experience that current of energy flowing back and forth and helping me move into what they call "a higher vibration."
I'm also preparing myself for the time when we start fluctuating back and forth between warmer weather and cooler weather, because I did so great all last winter, and then when we had a bit of a heat wave last February, I got really sick, and drained, from some sort of a respiratory illness. I don't want to assume it will happen again, but if it does, I want to push through and keep up my practice, even if it's only for a few minutes at a time.
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