A little tiny bit of background. It took us two years to conceive DS1. DS2 was a total surprise I hadn't even had a PP period. AND was still bf. I have not yet gotten a PP from DS2. and am tandem bf
Dh and I have, well Dh has and I logically agree we should wait to TTC again for a while. Like maybe space 2 2 1/2 years. This makes sense. I should get into better shape, older children are nice to have and weaning at least one would be good, along with potty learning.
I know all this. I am trying so hard to get on board. I even bought condoms (offline for good sale on durex to last like a year or two) I get this is what we discussed and decided.
BUT I can't get my head around not TTC. I am partially disappointed when Dh uses a condom or doesn't...um deposit. Ever since DS2 was born, like within a day I have been wanting another baby. So So often I get this feeling like someone is missing.
The thing of it is, Dh and I plan on 4-6 kids, so its not like we're not having more. Dh doesn't much see the point of talking about it since...well its decided and I haven't even ovulated yet.
Arg anyone else go through this? advice? I just have baby on the brain, this feels like when we were trying and failing with DS1....