So my 3 year old DD has been doing pretty well behavior wise for a while now, after a really rough period from about 2 1/2 to 3 (horrible tantrums, biting, hitting, etc.) The last 2 weeks have been really bad, though. Not sure what's going on.
I do not believe in spanking or yelling at kids, but I lost it tonight. I screamed, and I mean screamed at her. The whole day she's been whining and hitting and she wouldn't eat all day because she didn't like what we had. So come bathtime, she threw a fit and that's when I lost it. She was sobbing, shaking, and saying "mama, be quiet!" and I kept yelling at her. I then put her in her room so I could cool down but now I feel just awful. It's no excuse, but I am 38 weeks preg. with DD#2 and I am just exhausted and emotional already and this is so hard to deal with. I feel like a horrible person, and I wonder if I did some permanent damage to her. I so badly want to fix it. I apologized to her but I still feel like she's scared of me. Why, oh why couldn't I just have taken a breath and given myself a time-out? I guess I am just looking for suggestions, and ways to deal with this guilt that is eating me up. I understand if some of you say I am a bad mama. :(