I'm embarrassed to even post about this since I don't have much to complain about, but I just had to get it off my chest because I can't sleep, it's late and my husband is getting tired of being sympathetic.
I just got my period today. I've been TTC since Sep, after TTCH (convince hubby) to let us have a third for about a year. We have a 4.5 and 2.5 year old. DH and I are in our mid-30s. I know I have A LOT to be thankful for and there's no reason to believe it won't all work out in the end.
But every time I get my period I get so blue. I've been using an ovulation kit and thought we had been timing everything perfectly. I guess I sort of feel like if it hasn't happened already, why should it happen in the future? Am I doing something wrong? Is this normal? Why was it so easy before? Etc.
I guess maybe I would feel more flexible if other parts of my life were more flexible. Unfortunately, the timing of maternity leave can make a big difference in my compensation and future job opportunities and even my ability to take leave at all in my line of work and I'm running the risk at this point of conceiving a kiddo with an awfully inopportune due date at this point. So I have trouble not worrying about ... even though in the big picture, it doesn't seem worth worrying about.
I know this is small potatoes compared to actual infertility. But does anyone else feel this way?
Ok ... trying to sleep now.