January Pagan Families - Page 3

[Valerie.Qc]

(((FeralFox))) 

[DaughterOfKali]

Originally Posted by FeralFox 

At any rate, the Gods are teaching me a lesson, apparently.  I started bleeding this morning.  I went in for bloodwork this afternoon, and when that comes back they'll schedule my ultrasound to confirm the loss.

I'm so sorry.  Please don't think that the gods are teaching you a lesson.  Terrible things happen.  This is one of them.  I'm so very sorry.

[_ktg_]

Originally Posted by DaughterOfKali 

I'm so sorry.  Please don't think that the gods are teaching you a lesson.  Terrible things happen.  This is one of them.  I'm so very sorry.

I agree with DOK on this 100% - Just as life happens, so does death and the wheel continues to turn.  *hugs* I'm sorry this is happening for you and I hope you will be gentle with yourself during this time.
 

[_ktg_]

Originally Posted by 3xMama 

Netflix keeps recommending it to me and I keep going past it. I think I'll have to add it to my instant queue now, though.  I'll watch it as soon as I've fulfilled my new found love for 30Rock. Seriously, how have I gone all these years without watching that show?!

DH &  I love  30Rock!!  We have to watch together otherwise the other will get all pissy and such.  I don't know what season you are on, but all I can say is: Operation Righteous Cowboy Lightning 

Our new show which we just got into: United States of Tara,  It has John Corbett in it and I  him.    Dowton Abbey is a show just for me when DH decides to go gaming for the night.

[vydalea]

Oh, Feral!     sending you peace, mama.  

3x: I use http://zodiacarts.com/Calendar.shtml for my moon calendar.  I think igoogle has an app, too, that you can put on your igoogle homepage if that's what you use.  

Clay: I hope you can find a job that doesn't suck out your soul!!  

I call myself Vegan/Vegetarian-ish.  We have meat very rarely but I don't feel that I can (or want) to cut it out completely.  

I think it's warmed up enough today for Z and I to sneak down to the park!  hooray!  I need to get outside!

Sending everyone healthy, loving energy!!   

[vydalea]

PS ktg- my DH also loves John Corbett. seriously.  Total. Man. Crush. and is very open about this.    

[revolting]

Originally Posted by _ktg_ 
YUM :)

I love everyone's words this year and I've decided on mine - DEDICATION and REVELATION. In looking at so many things like diet, exercise, spirituality, healing - I've fallen off the bandwagon a bunch, so I'm getting back on with horse (or the broomstick) with these and can't wait to see what this next year reveals to me as I go down this path.

Revelation: what a great word!
 

Originally Posted by StevensMommy 

I only say persevere because I looove steak and cheese, but it doesn't love me. I'm pretty used to alternative diets, and this one really appealed to me as I don't agree with the conditions many animals are put through just to get our food. It's just going to be a really rough transition for me is all.

I was a vegan for eight years, and a vegetarian for two years beyond that. It gets easier. I think cheese was what I missed the most when I was vegan, and it took much longer to get over it: almost a year. But eventually, it does get easier. That said, I'm no longer vegan. I'm extremely ethically picky about my animal products, and since that makes it pretty expensive, we still eat largely vegan. Have you tried any of the cookbooks by Isa Chandra Moskowitz? It's a bit of processed food heavy (a lot of soy-based replacements for animal products), but I found her cookbooks to be really good for the transition.

Originally Posted by FeralFox 
I keep seeing ads for that show, but haven't checked it out yet.  Do you know if it's streaming on Netflix?

The Disney thing - No, they technically can't take him out of state without my permission (though I don't have primary custody) but he knows about the trip and I would not think of denying it to him.  This morning he was talking about how excited he is to meet Nemo at Disney (do they have a Nemo guy in costume there?) and he was talking all about what we'd be doing there, so I felt like I had to tell him that it would be just grandpa and grandma and daddy with him, not me.  He started cryinf and saying "but grandpa say everybody could come!", which broke my heart.  I told my ex about it, and he's going to try to convince his parents to add me on to the trip.  As for me never being able to go with him, I didn't mean because of the cost of the trip.  I could take him for sure, but his grandparents are super wealthy and we're dirt poor (hence me not having custody) so they'll be buying him every extra and souvenir and everything that money can buy.  I can never do that for him, any trip we would go on would pretty much be bare bones, and a huge letdown after this first trip with his grandparents.  There really wouldn't be much point.

At any rate, the Gods are teaching me a lesson, apparently.  I started bleeding this morning.  I went in for bloodwork this afternoon, and when that comes back they'll schedule my ultrasound to confirm the loss.

 Oh, Feral, when it rains, it pours. I hope good news comes your way both in the form of a trip and the pregnancy. Have hope. When my mother was pregnant with me, she miscarried only to find that she had only miscarried one child but was still expecting twins!

So, I'm kind of psyched about this weekend. We're going to a house in the country a family member on my partner's side of the family owns. I live in the city, so yeah, you can see the moon, but I'm so excited to do a full moon ritual where light pollution doesn't mask the sky so much.  Can someone recommend a few books good for looking for constellations with little kids?

Also, does anyone make candles for Imbolc? I'm thinking about doing that this year, the kind where you just roll the beeswax so that my littles can do it. Any suggestions on where to get the sheets of beeswax affordably?

[DaughterOfKali]

Originally Posted by revolting 

Also, does anyone make candles for Imbolc? I'm thinking about doing that this year, the kind where you just roll the beeswax so that my littles can do it. Any suggestions on where to get the sheets of beeswax affordably?

I think I saw them at Michael's.

[Maiasaura]

Originally Posted by FeralFox I could take him for sure, but his grandparents are super wealthy and we're dirt poor (hence me not having custody) so they'll be buying him every extra and souvenir and everything that money can buy.  I can never do that for him, any trip we would go on would pretty much be bare bones, and a huge letdown after this first trip with his grandparents.  There really wouldn't be much point.

At any rate, the Gods are teaching me a lesson, apparently.  I started bleeding this morning.  I went in for bloodwork this afternoon, and when that comes back they'll schedule my ultrasound to confirm the loss.

Oh, Feral I'm sorry, hon. Don't think you're being punished! Sometimes shit just happens. I know this will not sound comforting, and very hokey, but I'm one of those that really believes that miscarriages happen because the baby wasn't viable for some reason-- not because the parent(s) did something wrong.

As for Disney-- if that's what you're worried about, then you can provide him with the memory of a lifetime, in the form of Mom and Son Time Money doesn't make everything. Some of the poorest people I know have the best memories, compared to the richer ones. Plus, by the time you take him, Badger will be old enough to really remember it! Believe me, what did you say he is, three? He won't remember a thing, probably.

Oh, and no, there's no stuffed Nemo-guy, unless they've changed things. They did have this really cool interactive show where all the people sit, theater-style, like an audience, and the cartoon on the screen in front of all of you actually points out people in the audience by what they are wearing and stuff, and talks to them like they're really doing a comedy stand-up or whatever. That was very cool. I slunk down in my seat so as not to be pointed out!

Originally Posted by 3xMama And, um, what exactly is BJs? Is that short for something other than.....*ahem*??  

Maia-DVR is super super easy to learn. My eighty year old grandparents who refuse to have a computer because its too high tech have mastered the DVR, I'm pretty sure you can, too!! And I'm glad you've had all sorts of wonderful kinds of fun with M. 

I have Lunabar, but it's old and you have to find it. I love it-- it has two icons in my task bar that tell me the moon's phase, and what sign the moon is in. And you can click them and get a little page that tells you all sorts of moon lore and things. But if you try to search for Lunabar, you have to keep looking because you will get the granola bars for pages and pages.

DVR-- I dunno. I am going to go to the cable company sometime this week or next, and ask about basic, because I already have cable internet for only $20/month, and I saw you can get that plus basic for $37 or something-- but I think that's only for new customers. Well, I'm going to grease that squeaky wheel because I am a new TV customer!

Originally Posted by _ktg_ It has John Corbett in it and I  him.  

Isn't that the guy from Northern Exposure? If so-- oh, YUM!

Originally Posted by vydalea I call myself Vegan/Vegetarian-ish.  We have meat very rarely but I don't feel that I can (or want) to cut it out completely.  

I'm low-carb, which makes me Omnivore

Originally Posted by revolting When my mother was pregnant with me, she miscarried only to find that she had only miscarried one child but was still expecting twins!

So...are you saying you are a twin? But were triplets originally?

[3xMama]

Originally Posted by _ktg_ 

I agree with DOK on this 100% - Just as life happens, so does death and the wheel continues to turn.  *hugs* I'm sorry this is happening for you and I hope you will be gentle with yourself during this time.
 

 I couldn't agree more!

Originally Posted by _ktg_ 

DH &  I love  30Rock!!  We have to watch together otherwise the other will get all pissy and such.  I don't know what season you are on, but all I can say is: Operation Righteous Cowboy Lightning 

Our new show which we just got into: United States of Tara,  It has John Corbett in it and I  him.    Dowton Abbey is a show just for me when DH decides to go gaming for the night.

Oh that one was fantastic! DH has watched all the episodes on Netflix through twice and I'm catching up with him. I'm close to the end of season three. Loving it! And United States of Tara, DH and I started that on DVD from the library forever ago and I just saw it yesterday on Netflix! DH was so-so on it but I loved it! And John Corbett...oh yum. He also did Aiden on Sex and the City and I've had a crush on him ever since. 

Originally Posted by vydalea 

PS ktg- my DH also loves John Corbett. seriously.  Total. Man. Crush. and is very open about this.    

 Awesome!

Originally Posted by revolting 

Revelation: what a great word!
 

I was a vegan for eight years, and a vegetarian for two years beyond that. It gets easier. I think cheese was what I missed the most when I was vegan, and it took much longer to get over it: almost a year. But eventually, it does get easier. That said, I'm no longer vegan. I'm extremely ethically picky about my animal products, and since that makes it pretty expensive, we still eat largely vegan. Have you tried any of the cookbooks by Isa Chandra Moskowitz? It's a bit of processed food heavy (a lot of soy-based replacements for animal products), but I found her cookbooks to be really good for the transition.

 Oh, Feral, when it rains, it pours. I hope good news comes your way both in the form of a trip and the pregnancy. Have hope. When my mother was pregnant with me, she miscarried only to find that she had only miscarried one child but was still expecting twins!

So, I'm kind of psyched about this weekend. We're going to a house in the country a family member on my partner's side of the family owns. I live in the city, so yeah, you can see the moon, but I'm so excited to do a full moon ritual where light pollution doesn't mask the sky so much.  Can someone recommend a few books good for looking for constellations with little kids?

Also, does anyone make candles for Imbolc? I'm thinking about doing that this year, the kind where you just roll the beeswax so that my littles can do it. Any suggestions on where to get the sheets of beeswax affordably?

I was a vegetarian for a long time. It can be really hard to do well and stay healthy, esp on a budget. I honestly don't regret not being veggie anymore. I still consider myself an animal activist, but vegetarinism just isn't for me nor my family. Plus as a chef DH is a total carnivore. I tried to get him to be veggie for awhile and it totally backfired. After watching him make one too many beautiful and wonderful smelling meat dishes and then hand me a warmed over chix patty, I caved and ate his steak. 

Sounds like a great weekend!! I hope you enjoy!! I'm a little jealous, I'm jonesing to get out into the country and look at the stars.

Hobby Lobby is good for any of the crafty stuff and would have it. The price tag is somewhat hit and miss though, sometimes they have awesome deals, sometimes I have sticker shock.

Maia-(Blast, why do I keep forgetting to quote you?!?! GAH!) Thanks for the Lunabar tip. At first I thought you were talking about the granola bars and barely skimmed the section, lol. Sounds like exactly what I'm looking for though, I'm going to look for it right now!

LMAO--DS2 has just figured out how to blow raspberries. He's sitting next to me, concentrating very hard, blows some raspberries, laugh, blows some more, laughs, can't figure out how he did it and sucks on his lips, has a mini tantrum, blows more raspberries and laughs, looking all the time at me for approval. Rinse and repeat. Too cute! I love watching these little ones learn. 

[Maiasaura]

What a f***ing horrible day. I had a fine time, till I picked up ds from school, and he has had one of those freaking BEASTY days, arguing and arguing and treating me like poop and just freaking contrary.

Is it the age or what? Those of you with older kiddos, mine is about to turn 11, and he's always been contrary, but he just wipes me the frick OUT. He is so argumentative. Has to contradict EVERYthing. If I said the sky is blue he would say "No, it's not" before he even realized he'd spoken, it's so habit. OMG I am so tired. Four hours of this shite, I kid you not. No-- four and a half. Non stop. No wonder I've been having BP issues.

[3xMama]

Originally Posted by Maiasaura 

What a f***ing horrible day. I had a fine time, till I picked up ds from school, and he has had one of those freaking BEASTY days, arguing and arguing and treating me like poop and just freaking contrary.

Is it the age or what? Those of you with older kiddos, mine is about to turn 11, and he's always been contrary, but he just wipes me the frick OUT. He is so argumentative. Has to contradict EVERYthing. If I said the sky is blue he would say "No, it's not" before he even realized he'd spoken, it's so habit. OMG I am so tired. Four hours of this shite, I kid you not. No-- four and a half. Non stop. No wonder I've been having BP issues.

Sorry, mine are all too little to know anything about older kids. I can't even imagine how wearing that would be, though. Any chance to get a break?? Can you treat yourself to something nice (a massage or something) while he's at school next week just to help you relax? I'm sorry, mama, that's one tough situation.  :-/

[FeralFox]

Maia - I'm so sorry your son is being a pill!  I try to remind myself that it's a sign of intelligence when badger does it.  Not much reassurance, I know, but it's something at least.  Peace to you, mama.

So, the baby is still there and healthy.  We had an ultrasound today, and it turns out she's just so huge that she's making *me* bleed.  She's a full week ahead in size, but not developmentally ahead, so the dates are correct.  This is what I get for marrying a giant.  And maybe the Gods really were trying to teach me a lesson, because I feel much less disconnected from the baby now.  Hopefully the feeling will last.

[Maiasaura]

Originally Posted by 3xMama Sorry, mine are all too little to know anything about older kids. I can't even imagine how wearing that would be, though. Any chance to get a break?? Can you treat yourself to something nice (a massage or something) while he's at school next week just to help you relax? I'm sorry, mama, that's one tough situation.  :-/

You know, that's not a bad idea. I have a Groupon still, for a massage. I shall call today

Originally Posted by FeralFox Maia - I'm so sorry your son is being a pill!  I try to remind myself that it's a sign of intelligence when badger does it.  Not much reassurance, I know, but it's something at least.  Peace to you, mama.

So, the baby is still there and healthy.  We had an ultrasound today, and it turns out she's just so huge that she's making *me* bleed.  She's a full week ahead in size, but not developmentally ahead, so the dates are correct.  This is what I get for marrying a giant.  And maybe the Gods really were trying to teach me a lesson, because I feel much less disconnected from the baby now.  Hopefully the feeling will last.

Oh, well Feral, he's off the charts intelligent-- which I don't always see as a good thing. I did a paper in college a gazillion years ago, a book review on a book called "The Mad-Genius Controversy" on the fine line between exactly that-- madness and genius. Sigh.

But YAY about the baby! What a relief, huh? I hope the feeling lasts, too

Well, today's a new day. I gave ds his med first thing, so my morning is going pretty well for a change. I just feel sorry for the school, as it will wear off long before the school day ends. It's supposed to be nearly a 12-hour med, but ds has such a high metabolism that it barely lasts 7, if we're lucky. Usually I suffer the morning so that he can last nearly a full day in school without behavior problems. Sigh.

La Befana left things for ds in his rain boots: a bag of Star Wars coins, a giant sugar cookie, 12 lip balms in candy "flavors" (Nerds, etc), and a cute little desktop basketball hoop. You shoot the basketballs like tiddly winks. It's really cute. Oh, and a Cars Pez dispenser with one of those teeny cars you pull back and let it go and it vrooms across the room.

LOL @ marrying a giant-- M is only like 5'7" and he's the tallest of his 10 siblings. Teeny Irish family But he's the perfect size for me-- I'm barely 5'1". DS's father was 6' tall and I got a crick in my neck all the time trying to look up at him. I love M-- I wish he'd been ds's father. We'd have made such awesome parents, and such beautiful babies

NO.MORE.BABIES for me, though! No way, nohow. I am still just as fertile as I was at 14; I have to be really careful!

[3xMama]

Originally Posted by FeralFox 

Maia - I'm so sorry your son is being a pill!  I try to remind myself that it's a sign of intelligence when badger does it.  Not much reassurance, I know, but it's something at least.  Peace to you, mama.

So, the baby is still there and healthy.  We had an ultrasound today, and it turns out she's just so huge that she's making *me* bleed.  She's a full week ahead in size, but not developmentally ahead, so the dates are correct.  This is what I get for marrying a giant.  And maybe the Gods really were trying to teach me a lesson, because I feel much less disconnected from the baby now.  Hopefully the feeling will last.

Hooray!!  Just a quick idea I had about feeling more connected to the baby-whenever you start to feel disconnected, try singing baby a song. Pick one like Hush Little Baby or Rock a Bye Baby and always sing that song and make it your song. It may become something you can both take comfort in. I remember reading somewhere that if you read a baby one book over and over or sing one song over and over before birth baby will learn to recognize it and be soothed by it. I sang DS1 Hush Little Baby all the time while I was pregnant with DS2 and it really worked! DS2 has always stopped crying to Hush Little Baby and will even doze off to it, though not so much now that he's older. I hope that makes sense, DS2 is sitting on my lap crying, wiping snot on me and trying to shove his fingers in my mouth as I'm typing so I'm not sure if its coherent! I was singing him Hush Little Baby and it gave me the idea. 

Originally Posted by Maiasaura 

You know, that's not a bad idea. I have a Groupon still, for a massage. I shall call today

Oh, well Feral, he's off the charts intelligent-- which I don't always see as a good thing. I did a paper in college a gazillion years ago, a book review on a book called "The Mad-Genius Controversy" on the fine line between exactly that-- madness and genius. Sigh.

But YAY about the baby! What a relief, huh? I hope the feeling lasts, too

Well, today's a new day. I gave ds his med first thing, so my morning is going pretty well for a change. I just feel sorry for the school, as it will wear off long before the school day ends. It's supposed to be nearly a 12-hour med, but ds has such a high metabolism that it barely lasts 7, if we're lucky. Usually I suffer the morning so that he can last nearly a full day in school without behavior problems. Sigh.

La Befana left things for ds in his rain boots: a bag of Star Wars coins, a giant sugar cookie, 12 lip balms in candy "flavors" (Nerds, etc), and a cute little desktop basketball hoop. You shoot the basketballs like tiddly winks. It's really cute. Oh, and a Cars Pez dispenser with one of those teeny cars you pull back and let it go and it vrooms across the room.

LOL @ marrying a giant-- M is only like 5'7" and he's the tallest of his 10 siblings. Teeny Irish family But he's the perfect size for me-- I'm barely 5'1". DS's father was 6' tall and I got a crick in my neck all the time trying to look up at him. I love M-- I wish he'd been ds's father. We'd have made such awesome parents, and such beautiful babies

NO.MORE.BABIES for me, though! No way, nohow. I am still just as fertile as I was at 14; I have to be really careful!

Enjoy your massage! Today is a new day so here's hoping it goes very well. 

[redveg]

Originally Posted by FeralFox 

Ugh, Disney.  That"s a "just to make matters worse" subject with me right now.  I have always been really vocal about the fact that I dream about taking my kids to Disney, and that it's a really big deal to me to be able to do it.  My ex knows this, and his parents know this.  So what did I find out a few weeks ago?  My ex in-laws are taking the whole family to Disney next year - Ex, Badger, and them.  Not me.  For badger's first ever time on on airplane, and his first time at Disney.  They never even asked me to see if I was ok with it.  I'm so hurt and angry about the constant disregard shown to me by then, but this just takes the cake.  They know how important it is to me to take him to Disney, but now I never can.  I am never going to get over it.  I haven't talked much about the situation with Badger, but it really feels like I'm not even his mother anymore.

(((hugs)))  You will be able to take him and have a wonderful experience.  When my kids were young we took them to Disney and all they wanted to do was swim in the pool at the campground.  They don't remember anything about Disney except the pool.

Originally Posted by Valerie.Qc 

(((FeralFox)))

Pinterest: I only browse, I'm not a member yet... Maybe I will, maybe I won't, lol! It,s so easy to loose track of time when on there!

I only browse too.  Not a member but my DD is.

Originally Posted by StevensMommy 

Thanks everyone. I would have to say my words would be perseverance and mindfulness. Like I hope to persevere with this being a vegan thing...

I have been a Vegetarian since I was about 13 or so, maybe younger/older but just this last month I went Vegan for some health reasons.  I don't eat meat not because I don't like it, it's more of the killing aspect for me, factory farming and I just can't bring myself to eat something that I know was a living being. The only thing that kept me from being Vegan was Cheese/sour cream/cream cheese and the occasional egg from my chickens.  I have fallen off the Vegan wagon 3 times and because the dairy is really no longer my friend it is getting easier. 

Originally Posted by Maiasaura 

Disney-- your kids won't remember at all if it was World or Land. If you have the opportunity, I'd say just go! Take lots of pix! When we went in '07, my mom made ds little photo books all for himself of the time we had there, one for each park. Pretty cool (she's a scrapbooker).

I agree:)  Photo book of your Disney trip  with your little one is an awesome idea.

Originally Posted by FeralFox 

At any rate, the Gods are teaching me a lesson, apparently.  I started bleeding this morning.  I went in for bloodwork this afternoon, and when that comes back they'll schedule my ultrasound to confirm the loss.

(((hugs)))

Originally Posted by DaughterOfKali 

I'm so sorry.  Please don't think that the gods are teaching you a lesson.  Terrible things happen.  This is one of them.  I'm so very sorry.

I agree. 

Originally Posted by Maiasaura 

What a f***ing horrible day. I had a fine time, till I picked up ds from school, and he has had one of those freaking BEASTY days, arguing and arguing and treating me like poop and just freaking contrary.

Is it the age or what? Those of you with older kiddos, mine is about to turn 11, and he's always been contrary, but he just wipes me the frick OUT. He is so argumentative. Has to contradict EVERYthing. If I said the sky is blue he would say "No, it's not" before he even realized he'd spoken, it's so habit. OMG I am so tired. Four hours of this shite, I kid you not. No-- four and a half. Non stop. No wonder I've been having BP issues.

I have 2 that take turns doing this.  Thank the Gods it's never on the same day!  My DD has eased up a bit but she is still the sort who will have a major emotional breakdown that turns into yelling, stomping, nitpicking every word literally  fighting that never ends.  The same conversation forever if we don't agree because she thinks if we don't agree we haven't heard her or something.  Yet she can only see her side.  I am at the point where I just let her have her say and come back to the discussion when she has calmed down.  Now my DS, he is the type who corrects everything, including your sentence structure and only see's things in Black or White. There is only right or wrong and if it can be proven through science that's a big one.  My DS was a lot like my DD when he was younger but has calmed a bit.  He has an outlet though, martial arts and I think that helps a bit though there are some days itjust starts out bad and ends that way.  With my DD I have had some conversations that have ended and started the next day.  There are even a few topics we won't talk with her about because of how out of control she gets.

Originally Posted by Maiasaura 

LOL @ marrying a giant-- M is only like 5'7" and he's the tallest of his 10 siblings. Teeny Irish family But he's the perfect size for me-- I'm barely 5'1".

My DH is from a tiny Irish family too.  I am 5' 6" and he is 5"5" on a good day:)

[DaughterOfKali]

Originally Posted by Maiasaura 

What a f***ing horrible day. I had a fine time, till I picked up ds from school, and he has had one of those freaking BEASTY days, arguing and arguing and treating me like poop and just freaking contrary.

Is it the age or what? Those of you with older kiddos, mine is about to turn 11, and he's always been contrary, but he just wipes me the frick OUT. He is so argumentative. Has to contradict EVERYthing. If I said the sky is blue he would say "No, it's not" before he even realized he'd spoken, it's so habit. OMG I am so tired. Four hours of this shite, I kid you not. No-- four and a half. Non stop. No wonder I've been having BP issues.

Maia-  I really can relate. Truly.  My son is like that, too.  I'm actually going to call for a therapy appointment (for myself) on Monday.  Ds is simply wearing me out.  And yep, my BP is on the rise...even though I'm on meds for it.

Originally Posted by FeralFox 

So, the baby is still there and healthy. 

Oh my goodness!  This is happy news!  I know it's been hard on you and I'm sorry about that.  I'm wishing you all the best.  Many hugs to you!

[FeralFox]

Redveg - That's my ex.  I'm 5'6", he's 5'5"ish and only a few pounds heavier.  And before him I was dating a boy who was an inch shorter and another 20 pounds lighter.  It's really nice to finally be with a man who doesn't make me feel like a big gangly monster.

3X - That's a good idea about the song.  With Badger, we had a book we read to him every night, but I'm not sure he really responds differently to it now.  Maybe we didn't do it enough.

Maia - You deserve a break sometimes too.  There's no reason why the school should get the full benefit of his meds each and every time.

Ugh, sometimes I wonder why we all have kids.  Do the rewards really outweigh the hassles?  I had to leave work early last night because I was so sick I couldn't even walk down the hall without getting that "you're about to puke and there's nothing you can do about it" saliva thing.  And then today I'm walking around the college town I live in, seeing all these happy single people that can date who they want and go where they want and spend money on what they want, and feeling a little resentful that I never had any of that.  It's my fault and no one else's, but still.

[StevensMommy]

Feral- I am so happy for you! I do hope the nausea cuts back though- that can be really rough. And I hear ya when it comes to big babies- told my midwife I was having a minimum 8 pounder, she kept swearing my DS was 7.5 MAX. I was right he he heee...

Maia- I wish I could help. I had a couple of cousins that I used to live with that were the exact same way and all I wanted to do was shoot them. Of course knowing my luck my son will acquire my attitude and be just as dry and acerbic as I am...

As for the vegan thing, I am eating about 95% vegan right now and hope to try to purchase the rest from local farmers as soon as I get some more $, I know the smaller ones in the area take care of their animals really well.

[LionessMom]

feral- go easy on  yourself. all these feelings are normal. you are having hormonal fluctuations. they will make you feel all these things. 2 pregnancies i was happy and never a worry and 2 pregnancies i was always sad, negative, and disconnected for the first 20 weeks. i am still having problems being happy. i am stressed out and not dealing very well. keep telling yourself that these are hormonal feelings and try not to take them too seriously. do not dwell on the thoughts. it gives them power. acknowledge you had them, then let them flow on their way. holding on to them makes the bigger stronger and attracts more to you. it is all hormones making normal worries and upsets worse. it will not last forever. it will let up and get easier and of course melt away when you see your baby for the first time. pm me if you want. i only want to remind you of this bc i am going through the same thing. just today for the first time i felt a glimmer of expectant joy. i hope it gets stronger as i go. bc with the last one i already had it full force. i am 15 weeks now.