sooo i'm back for some personals
outdoorsy -- *hugs* i'm so sorry to hear about your BFN, and i hope it's the last one you get. also, thanks for your response. i don't really know if the gyn is worried about getting in trouble or not. she tends to be a very abrupt person in general, and she's made me cry before. we're stuck with her, though, as we haven't been able to find any other gynecologists who are willing to take us as patients. and DP was adamant that i not allow a pharmacist to call her about changing meds. if she's already shouting at DP about this being illegal, i can't imagine she'd like having further attention drawn to her. btw...DP and i are PIAC girls too :) i can't imagine trying to make it work with just a stick between my legs. it's hard enough always getting it in the cup....
seraf -- i took your advice, except i emailed instead of calling. i've never been able to reach one of the docs there by phone, but they have been very good about responding to mails. and i agree with you that waiting a month wouldn't normally be that big of a deal. i guess i'm mostly just afraid that i'll have another recurrence of the cervical thing that they found two years ago. when that happened, the gyn's comment was, "it's not a big deal, but you need a hysterectomy asap." luckily, she was wrong and it was just a pre-cancerous micro-invasion, and they got it all. however, the type of cells they found are some of the most virulent and tend to recur. every time i get a pap smear now, i spend two weeks holding my breath waiting for the results. another positive will most certainly mean the dreaded "h-word". my next one is in april. so yeah.... thanks for taking the time to respond, and as always, greets and bisous to the whole family :)
desert -- aww, thanks gal. i'm not one for violence, but the thought of you storming into my gyn's office and slapping her across the face made me laugh. i think DP wishes she could do the same thing. sometimes the discrimination here just grinds me down. i don't understand it and it hurts me in such a deep way. but as DP keep saying "we're going to frak the system". maybe with the help of our lovely belgians, we'll be able to just that. sending *hugs* right back at you and your DP. btw, how's she feeling these days and how are *you* feeling?
lise -- thanks for the good thoughts! what's going on with you now that everything's squeaky clean? are you going to start trying again this cycle, and if so, are you doing a natural cycle or a medicated one?
mrsandmrs -- WELCOME and BIENVENUE!! i'm sure if you've been lurking for a while that you know what an incredible little community you've just joined. and how excited you must be feeling to be in your first TWW. tell us more about yourself and you DP. fingers crossed that you only have ride the rollercoaster this one time!
rs11 -- thanks for the luck wishes. we certainly could use them at this point! and i definitely plan on following your advice and picking the meds up...that is to say, as soon as they become available in france again....ugh. i'd have already had them in time for this cycle if we hadn't had to wait first for belgium then for the gyn here. how far into the TWW(T) are you? i know a *lot* of women who had cramping which they were positive was AF and then ended up with a BFP, and i believe abundant creamy CM can be a very good sign, too. in any case, don't give up! it's not over til the red witch rears her ugly head. besides, you ovulated two eggs! here's hoping that at least one of them is burrowing in for a 9 month stay! 
invitin -- yeah, the taking a break thing sucks....a not in the good way. i had to take the last two months off, but i was mostly fine with it because i knew i'd finally be starting IUIs this time around. thanks for the suggestion about talking to other people in the doctor's office. i would totally do that.....if there actually were other people in her office. neither my GP nor my gyn have a secretary, nurse or any other staff. it's just a waiting room and the doctor's office. i don't remember it being like this in any of the other countries i've lived in, but maybe i just wasn't paying attention. in any case, the less i have to deal with that woman, the better.
ugh...yeah i know that horrible unlucky feeling your talking about. after several cycles of dealing with our lovely-but-flaky donor, we went and found ourselves a back-up. it was a very good decision, as flakydonor continued to flake on us (showing up 2-6 hours late, cancelling on the same day one of us got a peak/positive OPK, etc). our back-up donor ended up becoming our main donor, and he's been as reliable as old faithful (pun only slightly intended). we even talked about finding a third donor as a plan C, since reliableguy isn't available on weekends. i definitely recommend putting in place a plan B. TTC is stressful enough without worrying that you might not have the one thing you absolutely need to make it happen. in any case, i'm thrilled that you were able to get the swim team sent. maybe it wasn't bad luck at all.... the frozen sperm that's winging it way to you right now might just contain half the DNA for your future little one. i hope that surge doesn't come until you get your "special delivery."
and i *totally* remember those commercials. i remember this one in particular from when i was a little kid. speaking of commercials from the 70s/80s do you remember the enjoli ones? thanks for that trip down amnesia lane. :)
handerson -- good to hear from you again and congratulations on your upcoming nuptials! i hope the time off is relaxing for both of you and that when you rejoin us here, your stay will be short and sweet!
happycalm -- welcome back! i totally remember you. i can't really say too much regarding the timing, as i obviously still haven't gotten it right. i think it's good for the sperm to already be hanging out in the fallopian tubes before you O, though. are you doing and ICI or an IUI? how has the clomid been treating you? don't forget to let us know how the follicle scan goes! c'mon follies, growwww!
esenbee -- woohoo! that first positive OPK is such a thrill, isn't it? i've heard the same thing that desert has...that younger women tend to get their LH surge further away from ovulation than older women, but of course everyone is different. do you temp as well? it might be easier to figure out when to inseminate if you look at where your post-O temp rise occurs in relation to your LH surge. i so agree with you...timing is an absolute biznatch. fingers crossed that you get it right this month!
afm .... well, as you probably guessed, i decided to go ahead with another clomid cycle instead of skipping this month altogether. the docs in belgium responded to my email within five hours of my sending it and said that they were fine with my trying one last clomid-stimulated cycle. now i just have to hope that i have good follicles on the unblocked side and that the estrace gives my lining a boost. so far the belgians have been fine with every single thing we've wanted to do.... they're such a breath of hope-inducing fresh air after all the demoralizing bullshnitt here in france. i think i'm going to have to restrain myself from kissing the doc who does my first IUI. i have a follicle scan a week from tomorrow, and if there is a good follie, i'll probably get my first IUI the next day! in the meantime, i'm trying to prepare myself for the inevitable "cloments" ( © Krista) and the possible bouts of rage that the estrace seems to spawn. DP is still in the TWW, but she is certain she's not pregnant. if AF does show up for her, i don't think she'll be disappointed.... we're both so excited to start the IUIs in belgium. i have such a good feeling about that place.
thanks again to all of you lovelies!
thank you. thank you.
hello and welcome. Congratulations on your first insem...It is so exciting isn't it?! Good luck enduring the tww with lots of self care and support from folks here. When did you and DP start thinking about having children? How has this process been for you and DP so far?
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to all of you fabulous gals!
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