Hello! Wow things have been crazy around here. The tonsil stuff did not go as planned. There were complications in the first surgery but glory to God I had an amazing anesthesiologist and she managed to handle the situation with much skill and very little pain. The rest of the surgery went well. My ex husband was a jerk and made me choose between my children (who did not want to leave home) and having someone spend the night to take care of me. Then as soon as Peter left (my boyfriend, but he is seriously my only friend who could stay with me) i started bleeding again and had to be rushed into surgery which was not nearly the walk in the park the first one was. The anesthesiologist was not as good, found out the hard way that I am highly allergic to morphine, and the whole thing was very traumatic. It resulted in considerably worse pain (I still have swelling from the breathing tube) and did not solve the problem for more than a few hours. I ended up bleeding for 10 days and almost needing a transfusion and 3rd surgery. All for my tonsils. A procedure toddlers can get over in a couple of days.
Right before the surgery I had my pap and the results came back bad. So I had the biopsies yesterday. Awaiting results from pathology. All for an STD I most likely got from my ex-husbands affair. Awesome.
Because of the illnesses I have not really been able to enter into the fast. And since my ex will not let the girls go to church on Christmas Eve i am feeling rather ambivalent about the whole nativity season which sucks because while the celebrations and stuff are fun it is not what it is all about. I should be more focused on the spiritual journey and not the festivities or lack thereof.
School is supposed to start in three weeks but I am not registered yet and do not have plans for a job transfer. My alimony ended last month and my renters are moving out next month. What a mess. But not going back to school right now is not an option. I must get there.
In the middle of my recovery Grandpa Great passed away. He was so ready to go and peacefully past on to his rest. I am sad that I missed the funeral but was still to weak to leave the house.
I had the girls for thanksgiving and it was lovely. Just a quiet day of cooking together and enjoying each others company. very nice.
We celebrated St. Nicholas day yesterday which is always a good time. We put our tree up at Thanksgiving and light it but do decorations on St. Nicholas day. We do stockings (as this is really a St. Nicholas tradition and not a Christmas tradition) and eat special treats (this year was dark chocolate fondue and roasted gourmet marshmallows). I was able to go to church Wednesday (Akathist to St Nicholas which was so lovely. He is the patron saint of quite a lot but especially to the needy, the orphans and the widows and I am going to go out on a limb and say women who were abandoned by the husbands ;) So the service revolved around praying for those in need, those who are alone and those who are sick. very beautiful). And then again on Thursday for the Feast Liturgy. Such a luxury to get to go to church this much in a week :) And I love St. Nicholas. Not just a defender of the poor and needy but also a defender of the faith who punches heretics (which he was suspended from church office for but then later reinstated when God told the church leadership that his actions had been justified.) His story really is just so amazing.
Nanzmum - How are you doing? Are things getting back to normal after the storm?
Momtigg - I will be praying or your sister. That is awful!
They are getting hit with a new storm today. Parts of NJ still are without power. Food is hard to find and people are waiting on long lines for gas!!! I waited almost 6 hrs.
My oldest is 7 years old tomorrow...7 years of making milk. MMMMooooOOOO
SO do I write a letter?? Do I try to sit down with the teacher??????
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