John16n33- I understand needing to find your "path". Not having a family member or anyone telling you what to think or believe. If we follow someone else the question becomes "Is it me or XYZ?"
When I could drive I followed my own path...I want to a Messianic church right away. My mother never wanted to go. I started going to church myself. My mother took to me to so many churches. At one point I even questioned going to church at all. Even now I do not wanting to go.
Many voices are out in the world. It can be hard some times to quiet them and hear the truth. Ask the questions that you need to ask.?Find strong believer in each point of view. Persons that you know have wisdom. Then ask and listen to the answers. Hear the person...then make up your mind. My mother went to 2 rabbis and 2 pastors. She listened to each then came to her own personal relationship with Messiah.
I hope that this is coming across as helpful.