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[AmBam]

I just finished my miscarriage this afternoon. I opted to stay at home. My mw is 4 hours away so from what we've been able to converse over the phone she's assuming blighted ovum. I delivered a placenta only. No baby. There was a small mass/pocket that did have a small amount of fluid and tissue in it. I have no experience with this, so I'm not sure.

I am at peace. I honestly believe the Lord has a plan for me and my life. This is part of it, for whatever reason.

If someone can figure out how to be able to edit the Roster that would be great. I will check in for sure, but dought I will be here too much.

Good luck and much love to all of you!

[beccabus]

Soooo sorry Ambam :(

[ms.shell]

Oh, AmBam, I am so sorry to hear that!  I am glad to hear that you are feeling at peace about it though.  My losses have all wound up being blessings in that if I hadn't had those losses I would not have the two beautiful dear living children that did make it earthside to be with us.  Hugs to you, mama; we will miss you here.

[DecemberSun]

Oh, AmBam!!!   I am SO sorry.  Hugs and love, Mama... 

[stegenrae]

Sorry, as well. I'm in the same boat. :'(

[AmBam]

Oh no Raegan!! What's going on???

Thanks ladies...I'm always amazed by the support of women! You guys are great!

And we had told everyone over the Christmas holiday and I'm amazed at the emails, phone calls and texts I'm getting from the women in my life! It's so great to feel loved and supported.

[BigMamaBear]

How devastating. I am so so sorry. I wish you peace and strength and comfort while you heal physically and emotionally. Be extra gentle with yourself. I'm so sorry.

[scowgirl]

AmBam (and Raegan!) I am so sorry to hear this news. You are both in my thoughts. It's just not fair.

[sjdragonfly]

I'm so sorry that both of you are going through this. *hugs*

[stegenrae]

Originally Posted by AmBam 

Oh no Raegan!! What's going on???

I'd been having some unusual bright spotting on a couple of occasions. Had my 1st mw appt yesterday, but she couldn't find the hb--but her doppler isn't super-strong, so that wasn't unusual. Still, with the spotting, she got me in for an u/s to see if I had a previa or what was going on with the bleeding. The abdominal u/s barely picked up a (non-moving) little blob, so she switched to a transvaginal transducer. I could tell immediately there was no movement, no blood flow/hb, it wasn't the size it should have been, and the u/s tech confirmed that it had not developed past 8w (I was 12w5d). So now I wait. and wait. and wait. My mw is bringing some tinctures in about an hour or so to helpfully get things started, we're monitoring for infection since it's been so long (I've been on 50mg sublingual progesterone, so that probably has impeded the passing). My 6yo DS is really sad, too. DH is taking a half day at work & should be home soon--which is good because I'm pretty much a basketcase right now. We tried for 18 months to get pg, so now I kind of feel like all that failure has come crushing back on me. If the m/c doesn't begin in earnest by Friday, I think I will ask my mw to get me started with a cytotec induction at home. I'm not good with waiting.
 

[AmBam]

Raegan I'm so sorry! I agree that waiting is the hardest part. I was so grateful this time that I didn't know that I had a blighted ovum. I waited for over a week to deliver my last baby (twin #2 at almost 19 weeks).

Know that I am thinking of you. Have faith in your body to do what it needs to do to to complete this process. Let me know how your doing. So sorry, mama. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[Stephenie]

I am so sorry for your losses. I've been there twice and it hurts so much. :( Best of luck to you ladies, I will pray for peace and healing for you both. 

[BigMamaBear]

Tears for you. I'm so terribly sorry. I hate how fragile life can be.
 

Originally Posted by stegenrae 

I'd been having some unusual bright spotting on a couple of occasions. Had my 1st mw appt yesterday, but she couldn't find the hb--but her doppler isn't super-strong, so that wasn't unusual. Still, with the spotting, she got me in for an u/s to see if I had a previa or what was going on with the bleeding. The abdominal u/s barely picked up a (non-moving) little blob, so she switched to a transvaginal transducer. I could tell immediately there was no movement, no blood flow/hb, it wasn't the size it should have been, and the u/s tech confirmed that it had not developed past 8w (I was 12w5d). So now I wait. and wait. and wait. My mw is bringing some tinctures in about an hour or so to helpfully get things started, we're monitoring for infection since it's been so long (I've been on 50mg sublingual progesterone, so that probably has impeded the passing). My 6yo DS is really sad, too. DH is taking a half day at work & should be home soon--which is good because I'm pretty much a basketcase right now. We tried for 18 months to get pg, so now I kind of feel like all that failure has come crushing back on me. If the m/c doesn't begin in earnest by Friday, I think I will ask my mw to get me started with a cytotec induction at home. I'm not good with waiting.
 

[Steffi418]

oh tears - I'm so sorry to hear of your losses, you are such amazing women, you are in my thoughts and prayers!!

[beccabus]

Oh my goodness.... :(  I am so sorry for the both of you....  :(  So sad..

[WendyJo410]

I'm so sorry mamas. Hugs and healing being sent to you in this difficult time.

[GoofyInOK]

Wow, I just came back from being gone for two weeks, and now I see this.  :(  I am so, so sorry to you both.  I wish I could say or do more more to help.  You'll both be in my thoughts for sure.

[LindyGirl]

I'm sorry you're going through this. ((((((Hugs)))))

[blumooned]

So so sorry to both of you.  I hope you both can recover quickly.

[Belia]

So sorry, AmBam and Raegan.  This is a horrible way to start the new year.  I wish you both peace.