Sorry you were guilted about this. I probably drink more coffee than I should, but whatever gets me through the day is the way. :-) I think there are much more damaging things we could be doing to our children than having coffee or a glass of evening wine. I don't drink alcohol because we are an alcohol free home for personal reasons. But I know that women with low supply are often encouraged to have a nightly glass of Guiness, so it can't be horrible!
WOW! How long does this process take?
Feeling done in.
It's dark at 4, we haven't been out of the house for fun in weeks. We're moving so we have to pack. Charlie's fussy and his drool stings my hands and it feels like he's bringing in four teeth at once. He keeps getting rashes, probably a teething thing. We have no money but have to pay out a whole lot soon so that we can move. We should get it, so that's good.
Looks like there could be amazing things coming from Dusty's work. Scary to get your hopes up and that adds to the overall stress.
I just feel tired. Charlie needs things and I feel like all I can offer is a tit and a body to lean on.
Hope this goes away soon. I think it should after the move. I just hate moving. So excited for the new house (most of the time) but I hate the change and the transition and all the freaking work. I start to pack, he needs to nurse. I don't keep track anymore of how often he's eating at night, but it's quite a bit.
When are you guys moving? We're looking to move ASAP, within a month or two. It will be hard packing things up with both little guys and DH working and going to school, but it will have to happen. I'm thankful to have decluttered so much and to still be going strong. It will make the move so much easier. I think this will be my easiest move yet because of the decluttering. But the young ones will add an element of difficulty, I'm sure.
I'm making huge changes with cleaning around the house and working hard to come up with a routine to organize/declutter. It's amazing. I won't bore you all with the deets but I feel like a new woman/mother/home maker.
DH is leaving today for his first business trip since Finn was born. He'll be gone until Saturday, in NC. Oh man. I'm not nervous at all, and THAT's what scares me! Nora has school Wed/Fri, so that should help if things get overwhelming, and my MIL isn't working this week in case I need some help. But...I think I got this. Is that bad? Ha! Maybe I'm just in denial?
Congrats on your cleaning! Sometimes I'll set the timer for 10 minutes and begin a task that I dislike, like cleaning the top of the fridge. It seems so silly to put it off, as it takes so little time when I finally do it.
Regarding business trips, DH is going away from this coming Wednesday morning (not tomorrow) and will be gone until late Friday night. I will be visiting family in Maine. I'm kind of dreading it, though.
Carrie its so nice to read that things are going so well. May the days of being covered in puke be over. I would love to be as motivated as you on the household chores.
I am back to baking fresh bread and made a batch of granola this past weekend. I did also get another batch of laundry detergent made and finish unpacking while DH was off during the Holidays. Its the rest of the everyday stuff that is driving me nuts yet I remain unmotivated.
I have such a large to-do-list right now that I find myself hiding from all of it by coming online. I have several sewing projects currently on the go, an unfinished wool soaker in DS2's current size, which by the time I finish it will be too small and have to be put away for the next time. I have major reorganizing to do. Things were just being put where ever as we were unpacking, and now that its all done I need to go back and actually organize and put things in sensible places, not to mention I want to make room somewhere for all my fabric supplies (some of it old clothes I'm planning on recycling) that will give me easier access and let me see what I have to work with at a glance. Right now its all in a big storage tub and I always end up having to pull it all out to get what I want/need so I put off some of the sewing work as a result.
Right now I'm working on turning some old t-shirts into footed leggings/pants for DS1. This is kind of urgent as he has been scratching at a graze on his foot so that everytime it just about gets healed up he'll scratch it up so that it starts bleeding again. I have been keeping him in his footed sleepers 24/7 to try and give the skin a chance to heal, then just this weekend came up with the idea of making footed leggings so he can wear clothes and we can actually take him out in public. I finished the first pair this morning and he has them on now. So far its working, but I'll have to see what happens when he gets up from his nap, as its mostly when he is in his crib that he scratches himself. I've already got the second pair cut, and would like to have them ready for him to wear tomorrow. I'm planning on making about 5 pairs, hopefully by the end of the week. That however depends on how much time I get to work on them. Yesterday DS2 went on a nap strike and went into total meltdown mode. His very loud crying kept DS1 awake during his nap time, so he cried and moaned too. DS2 also decided since he wasn't sleeping that the only thing to do was cling to my boob, which was out for nearly 3 hours while he cried, sucked & cried and catnapped for a few minutes at a time. All I can say is "Thank You Lord for Hulu." or I'd have gone crazy yesterday.
Today is going much better. Both boys are currently sleeping for their afternoon nap. I've actually managed a shower & lunch and now I need to get back to sewing those footed leggings for DS1.
I will say, that while it is stressful at times, and there are moments when I long to be able to do lunch with friends (my boys sleep when everyone else does lunch!) I would not swap being a SAHM for anything.
I find myself hiding online, too. Sometimes it all feels like so much. I envy you your sons napping at the same time. That happens sometimes for me but not often enough.
I hope the fitted leggings work for you.
Lyn - I give you credit for being so crafty and getting projects done! I'm still just working on cleaning. Someday I'll be crafty. Someday.
Hmm, good points, both. He really doesn't want more NOW. He just says things like, "I can't say in 5 years I'll feel the same". You know what I mean?
I have bad dreams sometimes that I POAS and its positive and I'm just devastated. I don't like bad dreams. They mean things, and I don't want them to mean what they mean.
I think too part of my problem is that I feel just wiped out by the end of the day. He always wants action after 11 pm, after a full day when I've worn myself out and already put both kids to bed. I could usually go for a quickie at 3 pm, but he's busy working usually. We just need to find time when we're both interested.
I just got bit by some kind of bug, I think. 10 min cleaning sessions WORK. I set the timer and DD and I do a quick 10 min of the living room. It's amazing. And today I didn't feel much like doing the kitchen, but I set the 10 min timer and wouldn't you know? I got the dishes unloaded, the sink emptied and the dishwasher reloaded, the pots washed, the counter wiped down. It only took 10 minutes! I couldn't believe it!
I also decided to scrub the sticky spots on the floor. I read a trick that if you scrub those spots up it gives the look of a clean floor, and you can put off mopping. Being that I don't even own a mop, I thought it could help. It did.
Yesterday I deep cleaned the bathroom. That took longer, maybe 30 min, but still. I read if you wipe down the surfaces daily, your weekly deep clean will be super quick. This link is super helpful:
I was hoping to avoid the pill too, but I'll choose that over an IUD. I had a bad experience with the Mirena, so it's not for me, unfortunately. Hopefully yours is covered by insurance! That's a lot to pay out of pocket!!
I'm the same way. Sad b/c that distance is there, but happy b/c we are doing the best we can. His way of showing me love now just has to be different. I don't mind doing stuff for DH, and I try to keep track of the last time I did something so I can initiate and make it seem like less of a pity act (ha, which is isn't, but you know what I mean).
Great info on scrubbing the sticky spots on the floor! It's true, too, about wiping the bathroom down daily. It will rarely need a deep cleaning if you do that.
Regarding birth control, we'll be doing natural family planning and/or condoms. I can'y use anything that messes with my hormones. (I don't rememeber who originally mentioned birth control.)