Don't usually post to this thread, but just had to say Wissa- so glad to see you on this side. Glad to hear good news about your progesterone numbers. The early weeks are so nerve-wracking.
deborah - Love the shirt! And that baby belly is really getting bigger! I think the kitty is saying, "Yeah, Mom, your toes are still there. You haven't seen them lately, so I thought I'd let you know." I'm sorry you're still having pain from the incident with your dog, but I'm glad you have wiggly little beans. I'm still waiting for that!
wissa - Just a few more days till your US... is it in the morning or the afternoon? Are you feeling the comforting feeling of being terminally ill with morning sickness like me and krunchy? Were you sick with your DS? Anyway, hope the time is flying for you. Oh, and ITA... there are SO MANY things about pregnancy nobody ever told me! All I heard about was morning sickness and having to go to the bathroom all the time. I WISH that was all it was! Somehow, in all the time I spent researching birth, I never got much into learning about pregnancy. I figured my body would just do it, and there wasn't much to know.
renavoo - Sorry things are so crazy at work for you. (I've been thread-stalking again.) I don't know how you do it - any of you ladies who work! Hopefully part of it is that you feel better than me. I don't think I could do 14-hour days even non-pregnant, though. I'm a weenie. Glad your little bugs are growing along, though. Crazy that you're over halfway done!
krunchy - One more week till the next ultrasound, right? Hope you are doing well, especially with those shots. So glad I do not have to do that - though it would definitely be dh, not me. Keep being a champion!
AFM, I have dh's dang cold and I have been very grumpy the last few days. It's like I just can't help but take everything dh says as some sort of personal insult. Not helpful! Some of it is probably just that I'm feeling pretty bad about myself - I'm supposed to be the "house spouse", but cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping - just not always happening. In fact, very rarely happening. I just about had a cow last night when dh showed me how much money we'd spent on food this month, between eating out and groceries. It was over DOUBLE what our budget used to be in that area. Of course, part of that is that both of us were out of town for a week and a half, and dh was out of town for another half of a week, so there was a lot of eating out then. It was for work, and work pays him per diem whenever he travels, but still... ugh. I know we've been eating out a bunch when we're home, too. He's too exhausted to cook, and a lot of times I'm too nauseous or neither of us can think of anything that sounds good. I just feel like I'm contributing exactly zero to the family right now. I'm not working in OR out of the home. And it's more like I'm negatively contributing, because I'm stressing dh out with feeling grumpy and sick. Grrrr.
I keep reminding myself that this too shall pass, and also that sometimes I need to do things, even if I'm not feeling up to them. Because sometimes doing things makes me feel better. On the plus side, between the two of us, we managed to get the apartment much more cleaned up this weekend, which I think makes both of us feel better. There's more I want to do, but my stomach feels like crap today. Oh, but I did manage to make cookies yesterday, which made dh very happy, as he's been asking for awhile about some sort of homemade treat. They're made with mostly almond flour, and there's more protein/fat than sugar in them by a ways, so I try to tell myself they're healthy.
Anyway, sorry to be so full of whinyness! I am super excited about all the BFPs on the One Thread lately! I am glad that I'm not really worrying about the baby at this point, although that may be because I worry more about me/dh. But I'm excited to hear the hb again on Friday, and glad that my mom and grandma are going to come, too. I hope this helps alleviate some of my mom's concerns about me birthing in a birth center.
Hope you ladies are doing well, and keeping you all in my prayers!
CACountryGirl - Thanks!! Sometimes I stalk you guys over at the BSL graduates thread. I've thought about posting over there, but the timing just hasn't felt right!
Deborah - I love the belly pics! The shirt is funny...it sounds like the boys are already conspiring against you. ;) BTW - My DS was a squirmer in the womb and I cannot imagine what it must feel like to have two little squimers in there!
Krunchy - Hang in there!
Monkey - It's okay to be a whiny every now and again. We have lot of cleaning out to do before our new little arrives too! The baby's room is almost a total junk room and our other spare bedroom has been ds's "playroom." In any case, everything is getting moved around before baby gets here!
And you'll probably want to kick me, but no I haven't been feeling terminally ill. I feel nauseous and tired in the afternoon and evenings, but no true morning sickness. I didn't have it with DS either. I think I only really threw up one time with DS (ribs! yuck!). Mostly, I had heartburn later (after like 9 weeks) with DS where I would throw up clear liquid stuff...acid! In a way I wish I did feel sicker, but then I remind myself I wasn't that sick with DS. Of course, I have the lovely pregnancy acne, tiredness, occasional nausea and sore bbs to remind me I am pregnant.
AFM - I'm excited and nervous about the ultrasound on Friday. I'm sending DS to my mom's for the weekend. If I knew everything would be ok, I would love to take him with me. My DH has talked to him some about having baby, but I don't think he really gets it. He did tell us that we could turn his bed back into a baby bed for the baby's room and then he could just sleep with us!! That's my DS always one step ahead on getting what he wants! ;)
Monkey- LOL. I like your hypothesis as to what the kitty is saying. I can still see my toes, but I don't think that will last long. I am not having nearly as much pain from the incident with the doggy as I did before and she is currently curled up with her head in my lap. Wissa- It is definitely interesting. Last week, I think one climbed on top of the other since I felt the first thing that felt like a punch/kick rather than flutters. I am getting crazy flutters from the kiddos when there is live music involved. They went nuts at the choral concert Concordia College gave on Saturday and then they wiggled again when I was at choir rehearsal tonight.
wissa - Trust me, I don't hate you for it! I wouldn't wish the feeling on anyone. I just know that many ladies have mentioned that morning sickness reassures them. It did reassure me some, especially in the beginning, but I really think I would have traded some reassurance for some feeling better! It sounds like you have plenty of other symptoms to reassure you, though. Most of the throwing up I've done has also been stomach acid, since I usually would get up and throw up first thing in the morning. (Partly because I felt like crap, partly because it kept me from throwing up my breakfast later!) Oh, and add heartburn to one of those symptoms I thought you only got later in pregnancy that actually hit me first trimester. Just a couple of more days till you see your baby! Oh, and we will actually be moving before this baby comes, so it's not just clean up to do. But I'm not even going to think about packing yet! (Not moving till May, so I'll save that for later!)
deborah - Glad things are going better, and how fun that your babies love music!
rcr - Stalking you, too, and hoping you get a good report tomorrow. I really, really hope you and Blue get your BFPs this cycle - then I can quit stalking the IVF thread! I first started stalking it because of you, and I've know a few others (like deborah and renavoo!) that have passed through it, and I've gotten attached to a few people who've been there a long time, but you and Blue are the real reason I'm still there. So hopefully I can just stick to stalking the grads thread soon!
AFM, threw up my breakfast cereal all over the kitchen floor this morning. And I was looking forward to reporting to my mw that I hadn't thrown up since Monday, and that it had been a week before that since I'd thrown up. Sigh. Every time I think I've got this thing beat, it comes back. On the plus side, I think dh and I have been getting along better, and I've gotten some good things done the past few days. Also, my cold is still here, but I think I may be able to pretty much kick it by this weekend, which would be awesome. It hasn't gotten nearly as horrendous as last time I got sick, and I'm hopeful it will stay that way. I got the Dr. Sears vaccine book at the library the other day, and have been reading that. (I think it's written by a son of the original Dr. Sears?) It's been pretty informative, and a lot more neutral than the last vaccine book I read. So that's been my baby prep for the week.
Oh, for a moment I've been meaning to share for awhile... I don't know if any of you have seen/done the "Early Pregnancy Symptoms" poll in the "I'm Pregnant" forum, but I was reading through what others have said and found this gem: "[I was] pretty sure I was pregnant because of knowing that I ovulated the morning after having sex." THAT'S what we were doing wrong, ladies! We were not taking the time to realize that we ovulated the morning after sex! We could have been pregnant ages ago! And yeah, I know... some of those crazy fertile ladies probably ARE pregnant every time the ovulate the morning after sex. But really? I wish I had that kind of naivete!
On a random happier (for me) note: I am feeling really grateful to not be feeling anxious about my baby at this point. There's a whole thread in my DDC about ladies who are about as pregnant as I am, and are going nuts waiting to feel their baby move, or have their next appt, or hear the heartbeat again, or whatever. I'm glad that I've really passed that phase in my pregnancy. That was me for the first 8 weeks especially, and still for a lot of weeks 9-12. But I'm glad at this point that I can at least relax and just believe my baby is okay until proven otherwise. Not that I'm not excited for my visit Friday, or my ultrasound that should be soon, just that I'm not worried in between. Don't know if it will last for the rest of pregnancy, but I'm enjoying the serenity while I can.
RCR - I need to stalk you. Aren't you getting close to egg retrieval?
Krunchy - I know you said you were trying to lay low, but do let us know how you are at some point. How are the PIO shots going? Ouch, but worth it in the end right?
Monkey - Hope you appointment goes well today. I'm LOL at the ovulation the morning after comment. Oh, to be so naive. (That's why I don't go to such places, some of things those women say just drive me nuts)
I'm glad you aren't' crazy anxious. It's hard not to obsess, but I'm trying to just enjoy finally being pregnant. I think the worry comes and goes in pregnancy, but I'll bet once you can feel movement you will even more at peace. Once you can feel the baby kicking it's like the little bean is saying Hi Mommy!
AFM - I'm 7weeks6days and the baby measure 8weeks1day with a nice heartbeat!!! Of course, it's like I can't ever not have something to wonder or obsess about. There is another "something" close to the baby. The nurse said something about it being an identical twin (but not a viable identical twin). So, ummm....what is going on. Not that anything can be done about whatever it is.
Oh, and she said my cysts are so big that really shouldn't be picking up DS. Ahh, that's just great, if not impossible. I still carry him around all the time.
It seems my RE is ready to kick me out, but I still haven't found an OB. ..... Also, seems like my RE's office wants to do ultrasounds every week. I really think that's over kill and I got weird looks when I told them I would pass. I mean if everything looks good and it's not medically necessary why do it? I guess they want to watch the mystery mass, but it just going to do whatever it's going to do.
All right guys, I think I am ready to join you over here! I am 7w2d today (eep - I can't even believe that when I type it!) and on my u/s on Mon. we heard both of those beautiful heartbeats, one at 122 and one at 130. I cried of course. Otherwise, wow am I sick. I am nauseous, can barely eat, all food is disgusting to me, and I can literally sleep all day. I know, 'cause that's what I do on the weekends. And I am so grateful to be here. I remember feeling similar with DS, only this is a bit more, like 25% or 30% more intense. Which makes sense. I keep trying to remember what my m/s was like with DS, and I think these weeks were the worst. It started getting better around 10 weeks if I am remembering correctly but I still felt pretty bad until 14-15 weeks. Poor DS, I feel so guilty!
Can't wait to catch up with all of you! Guys, we are...pregnant!
Okay, still no time for a real update, but didn't want anyone to worry - baby is doing well with a heartbeat of 150, my tummy grew 6 cm since last time, and all seems well on that front. I will be calling to schedule an ultrasound for 2-3 weeks from now. Cold is better, but I've got some other crap going on now that I hope will be sorted out by tomorrow. More later!
Gozal - Yeah for two healthy heartbeats!!! :) Hopefully the ms and tiredness will get better in the next few weeks. Try not to feel guilty about DS...
Monkey - yeah for a good appointment. Those 2-3 weeks will fly by!
AFM - Just really want to fuss a little. DH will not BD now, because he has some notation it might not be good for the baby. He did this with DS, but not to this extent...I thought he would be relieved there's not any "baby" pressure. (Clearly, what do I know about men's thoughts)
Trying to find an OB is turning into more of a challenge than I thought. I really want to try for a VBAC. I got the name of a doctor from a friend that work as a LD nurse at a local hospital. When called and attempted to make just an apt. to talk with the doctor I totally confused the woman who answered the phone. She just kept saying all of our ob patients come in for an hour evaluation with the nurse first...Ummm, I guess she doesn't understand what an RE is. I even explained I've already had multiple ultrasounds and bloodwork. I don't need that...I just want to interview the Doctor. In the end she said I'll have to call you back. Oh...grumble, grumble. Why do I always seem to mess people minds? Is my request really that out there?
Hi ladies, Thanks for the support. We had our ultrasound this morning and we didn't find a heartbeat. We are scheduling a D&C ASAP as I am sure my reproductive bits are unable to do much of anything, much less expel an itty bitty tiny baby. Take care, ladies.
krunchy - I am so, so sorry to hear that. I hope you can find peace and healing. I don't have much else to offer than a sympathetic ear, but if you need/want to talk about it, I'm definitely here.
Man, it is a ROUGH time with the IF ladies right now. I am so grateful for those over here who are doing well, but there seems to be a bunch of canceled cycles, poor responses, BFNs, and general suckiness going around.
wissa - Sorry your dh is being weird. I really, really thought my dh would be freaked out about sex while I was pregnant, but he totally surprised me by not seeming at all concerned. Men can be very hard to predict! Would he feel more okay with it if he went to an appointment and the doctor told him it was okay? Also, I don't know why that OB receptionist was so clueless! I think it's pretty normal to have a consultation/get-to-know-you visit with an OB before selecting them as a provider. I hope you can get it figured out. Have you looked into seeing if there is an ICAN chapter in your area that might be able to give you recommendations for a VBAC doctor? Or looked in Finding Your Tribe? I know in my area, a lot of people ask about that, and there seem to be several suggestions. P.S. Are you ready to be added to the grads list? If so, what do you want your blurb to say?
AFM, this is non-pregnant TMI, so read at your own risk: I got some sort of intestinal upset after going to dh's company BBQ. As in, I thought I was going to soil myself all over the seat of my car on the drive home - and it is about 15 minutes away, and I was fine when I got in the car! I ended up pulling into the drugstore next to our apartment complex because I knew I'd never make it through putting in the gate code, going over speed bumps, etc. It was CRAZY. I continued to have issues through Saturday night, including a scary incident with blood in my stool Friday night. Luckily, that was a one-time occurrence. I was also exceptionally grateful I'd been to the midwife that day and heard the baby, and that it was pretty clear the bleeding wasn't vaginal. I can't even tell you how my heart sank on seeing the blood on the toilet paper. I spent most of the rest of the night terrified, but not wanting to waste money/time/personal dignity on the ER unless it repeated itself, which luckily it didn't. All seems back to normal now, for which I am very grateful.
krunchy - I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how heartbreaking this time must be for you. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
monkey - It really does seem like a really rough patch for a lot of the ladies over on the infertility thread. I haven't had time to post over there, but I've been thinking about them and their struggles. As sourire said "It's not fair for so many in this IF"
I've looked everywhere to get a recommendation for a good VBAC doctor. The ICAN chapter around here only really recommends one doctor and I've heard mixed reviews. I wish we had mid-wives in my state, but we don't. Not even in the hospitals and it's illegal for midwives to attend home births here.
I have issues about what happens after the birth too...If I have to have another c-section I want the baby in recovery with me. That's also very hard to find. Honestly, when I think about going the hospital my gut response is to just birth in my big bathtub. It's hard to find women around here that understand that. I do have a friend that had a VBAC, but when she arrived at the hospital with her third baby they told she had to have c-section because her Dr. was not on call. Ha! She had already had a VBAC with her second and didn't let them force her in another c-section and had a 2nd VBAC no problems.... Anyway just an example of what I'm up against.
The doctors office did call me back and I have apt. next Wed. The nurse said she didn't know how to code that and was very nice. I also called my current OB/gyn that my DH doesn't like (because of distance) and I have apt. with him on friday. So, hopefully between the two of them one will workout. I still need to have a final meeting with RE at some point so I 'll be officially released. BTW my progesterone from Friday was 38.6. So, it hasn't dropped off big again.
GI issues...didn't I mention the one time I got really sick when I was pregnant with DS was when I ate (BBQ) ribs. So, all pregnant women out there consider this a warning...BBQ and pregnancy are a no go!!! Honestly, though so glad you made it to a restroom and have no ill effects or repeat episodes.
I meant to leave you a blurb the other day, but I got interrupted...
Wissa19, DH, and DS ('07), expecting #2 after 2.5 years, 3 doctors, 1 surgery and 5 medicated cycles.