Autumn, I wish there was something more we could do to help. I will be hoping for a miracle for your little one!
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Autumn, I'm sorry that the outlook isn't better for your baby. I'm thinking about you guys each day, praying for miracles for you all. Trusting your instincts about keeping baby in you as long as possible is so brave and strong, mama. Hoping events calm down so you can have the emotional space to enjoy the present moments with your babe.
Autumn- do you have a good support network where you are? Are folks helping out with bringing meals, etc.? I wish I could do that for you. Sometimes the day-to-day stuff can be a relief of some sort, but when the going gets tough, it's nice not to have to keep normal life going.
I'm praying for you.
A lot has changed in only a week.
Last Thursday I visited my midwife because I had a bad feeling and baby wasn't moving. We couldn't hear his heart with the doppler but could still see it on the ultrasound, so I knew the end would be near. My worst fears were confirmed on Monday, that he had passed. So with that, I was admitted and on Tuesday morning they began to induce me.
At 5:10pm on February 7, my dear Maxwell Thomas came into the world and into my arms. I wish I could have stayed there with him forever.
I didn't feel particularly strong. Frankly, I was terrified. I didn't do any birthing classes of any kind (I thought there would be more time!) and was staring at a liter of pitocin about to be pumped into me. I knew that I wouldn't ever get to hear my baby cry. Every time another baby was born that day and their lullaby played over the speakers I burst into tears. But my dear boy did awesome and we got through it. From everything I've read and learned from our DDC I knew I could do it, my mom helped me keep my focus the whole afternoon, and I had the world's most amazing nurse who rubbed my back after they broke my water and I couldn't regain my focus enough to control the pain (though I realized afterthefact why it hurt--I went from 4cm to 10cm in about 15 minutes) and held my hand during my (also blessedly brief) pushing.
Thank you all for your prayers. Surely we wished for a different outcome, but I think the prayers helped me through labor and birth.