I started out pretty lax about this.. for some reason, I'm super stressed today.
I think it started with a friend of mine posting about her 3D ultrasound on FB. I haven't even announced my pregnancy, and that got me to thinking what *could* possibly happen, remembering my previous losses.. I just feel like a wreck.
I'm going to Medicaid to get everything straightened out tomorrow. The backup hospital midwives I'll use take it.. and I kind of want an ultrasound around 6 or 7 weeks. I feel like telling them that my cycles are irregular, and having one for "dating purposes". I just want peace of mind, I guess? But I know losses happen later than that, and I know that having an ultrasound is not going to change whatever the fate of this pregnancy is.
I'm suddenly worried about betas.. progersterone... I'm just freaked out a little. And I currently have no insurance, and no way will I go to the ER just for a beta draw!
Why do I suddenly feel like micromanaging everything?! Someone just tell me it's going to be okay, regardless of the outcome. I'm losing it already!