I don't post here a lot, but I'm looking for some support.
I just recently found out that I'm pregnant. Not planned, from a one night stand.
I am 32 years old, and I have an 11 year old that I raise entirely on my own. This past year has been pretty rough, and I've dealt with a lot. I am just currently getting my feet back under me. Timing wise, this is probably the worst possible time for this to of happened. I am not stable financially, career wise, and am just coming back from a lengthy all out consuming depression, during which I barely functioned.
Everything, including the circumstances ( well, especially) of which I got pregnant.....tells me I should terminate the pregnancy. None of this makes sense to have another child right now.And also, there's the selfish side of me that is enjoying the somewhat freedom of having an older child. Not freedom, but I'm sure you know what I mean.
But, there's a part of me that actually wants to carry through with the pregnancy. I don't know why.
I guess I'm looking for mom's to tell me their experiences of having a child under "wrong" circumstances....or, single mom's who have children so far apart in age and what it like...actually I don't know what I'm looking for. I"m just lost.