I have been pumping for my DD for 9 months now. I have been very blessed with a good supply. She was a 27 weeker, came home with her NG tube (which came out after only 2 days), oral aversion, was super sleepy for months, and had a tongue tie (which got clipped). Despite that she did latch and nurse a few times when she was a few months old. But I think the reason we are not breast feeding (at the breast) is beacause I went back to work part time while she was still in the NICU, and by the time she was actually awake and getting over her oral aversion, I was working all the time. We just couldn't get into a sustained rhythm, and she never has gotten comfortable with it. She's home with DH. She is very healthy, doing well with bottle feeding, and pumping is going fine for me. And, she still is able to latch- she just clearly doesn't prefer it. My work schedule will be changing, I'll be home a LOT more, so I don't rule out the possibility that now (at 9 months, 6 months adjusted) she could become a breastfeeding baby.
So, I feel like a bit of a downer saying all this. But I also want to express that although it sucks to not be able to breastfeed, it's overall okay. I feel good about how we are both doing despite everything. I do mourn the loss of the ideal breastfeeding relationship but I think we all mourn something during the transition to motherhood. But I feel very satisfied with where we are now.
Hey me too! We are now exclusively pumping too. And finally happy with it. It seemed my preemie just had too much medical intervention. I've been pumping for 6 months now and also started out with an oversupply. Am so grateful I froze some of it for now. My supply has gone down since the NICU days but since I have the freezer stash I don't have to do formula! Woohoo. Hopefully my stash will remain until at least his 1 year birthday. I'd like to keep pumping until then too but we'll see. Wish me luck!
I tried for months to breast feed. Saw numerous lactation consultants, used nipple shield, pumped before nursing to stimulate let down, nursed in the bath, while walking, in all the breast feeding positions. oh and I even went to breast feeding groups. I was the only Mom there pulling out a bottle to feed him plus a baby on oxygen. Man, that was hard.
Anyway, it didn't work for me. I really wanted it to. I had to add the loss of breast feeding to pregnancy grieving for a load of fun in the therapist's office. We NICU Mamas have a lot of processing to move through before we can come to a place of healing, forgiveness, and acceptance. At least, I did. I finally feel at peace. Except this damn acid reflux but that's another thread...