I was "due" Dec 30. As of today I am 42w3d and I feel like I'm about to lose it. This is my fourth baby.
DD1 was an induced hospital birth at 41w1d. DS1 was an all natural home birth at 40w6d. DS2 was a natural hospital birth at 42w3d. So as of today I am passing my "record".
I'm planning another home birth. The only reason DS2 was a hospital birth is I lived in a state where home birth MW's were not legal and there were no practicing MW's in a reasonable distance to me. I'm back in the state I lived in with DS1 so going for a home birth again.
I am just getting so depressed. IRL I stay positive. EVERYONE is bugging me about inducing and I am constantly defending why I'm not inducing so I don't even hint at how I'm feeling emotionally because I feel that's just more to add to their argument of why I should induce.
I have been pretty healthy this entire pregnancy. I've gained 25lbs. I was borderline GD and tested my blood sugars 4x a day and kept them in normal levels through a very strict diet. Since my history of going past my due date my MW had me start taking this Gentle Birth Formula starting at 35 weeks. I took it religiously. All three previous babies have been born posterior, which can lead to late births. This time I was able to get this baby LOA since about 36 weeks and he's stayed there. My MW doesn't do routine cervical checks, but I begged her to at 40 weeks and I was 1cm and 20%. Very soft and my cervix was in the right position. I haven't been checked since. I have NO feelings of going into labor anytime soon. I have BH, but other than my belly getting rock hard, I can't feel them. I've lost pieces of my plug here and there, nothing major. My MW had me take Master Gland Formula starting Friday, taking it every hour for 48 hrs. I took it religiously... NOTHING!
So now, if I do not have this baby by Wed I have to go for a Biophysical Profile ultrasound. I don't want the u/s. I feel the baby is fine. He moves like crazy! He has a good heart rate. But my MW will only continue my care if I have this u/s. I have tried all the "safe" ways to get things going... nipple stimulation, contributions from DP, eating pineapple, EPO, spicy food, bumpy car rides, walking, acupressure, etc. I haven't tried acupuncture only because it's expensive and if it doesn't work I can't afford to pay for the acupuncture and turn around and pay for this BPP I have to have done.
I know they say that since this is my fourth baby I can just all of a sudden go into labor with no signs leading up to it. I hope that happens. I'm just getting tired and at this point I feel like all I am doing is waiting for labor to start. I try to do things to take my mind off of it, but it's there in the back of my mind bothering me. Even in my sleep I dream about waking up and being in labor.
Sorry this is so long, but I need to get it out. I just need to know this baby is coming SOON! Oh, BTW, my DD was 8lb 9oz, DS1 was 9lb 6oz and DS2 was 10lb 11oz. So I'm a little scared about how big this baby is going to be the longer I stay pregnant! Guess the u/s will tell me something on Wed...