I'm in a clinical trial for weight gain during pregnancy and the online portion asked a bunch of questions about various pregnancy related topics. I opened the mail today to find a letter saying that the symptoms I described online were compatible with depression and that I should follow up with my doctor. I showed the letter to DH (mostly because I thought it was funny) and he looked at me weird and said, "To be honest, I've been a little worried about this too, mostly because of how much time you spend in bed."
So, to be honest, now I'm trying to honestly assess my mental state, and I still don't really see it.
First, I spend a lot of time doing work in bed because I'm on sabbatical and I'm freezing all the time, so it's just more comfortable to do work under the covers. I got into this habit in grad school when I had no money for heat and no room for a desk. This is not a new phenomenon. Our bedroom is also the only room in the house that gets sunlight.
Second, I really feel like the majority of depression symptoms also happen to coincide with first trimester pregnancy symptoms. I mean, aren't most of us exhausted, moody, and sleeping a lot? Haven't we all had moments where we asked ourselves whether this was a good idea and then moments of elation? I don't know. I guess I just feel like this is normal preggo stuff.
Third, it is winter and disgusting here. It is cold and rainy/sleeting all the time, I have no incentive to get outdoors, and so I've been spending most of my time inside.
Finally, I do have bad days (like today) where my concentration is really terrible (largely due to a headache that would not quit) and I didn't get much work done, which of course adds stress because I have a big deadline coming up. But as far as feeling completely overwhelmed or uninterested in what's going on and so on, I just don't feel that's happening. I've been working out consistently, seeing friends, and eating relatively normally (for someone with nausea).
I suffered from major depression in college, so I feel like I have a pretty good grasp on when I'm feeling like that, but I guess I wanted to reach out to other DDC moms who are in the same rough stage I am to ask: is the first trimester basically like all the symptoms of depression rolled into one? Or am I missing a giant warning sign here?